I Just Raised Men for Revenge (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 4
#4. Despair (2)
Ian. Ian was a prince. And he was Sesenia’s one and only friend. Their lives had been intertwined so thoroughly that it would not be an exaggeration to say they had shared every moment together. As they grew, everyone naturally assumed they would become lovers and eventually marry.
But their relationship never progressed beyond friendship after Sesenia became engaged to the Crown Prince.
Yet, she kept Ian by her side because he cherished her more than anyone else. He gave her sincere advice. He had always been on her side.
When her free-spirited older sister caused a scandal, and when she herself had to inherit the family and shoulder the dual burdens of being empress precisely because of that sister—it was Ian who blamed Elzer and their father.
Now, that same Ian claimed to love her sister.
Sesenia was utterly dumbfounded.
“Love? Fine. So it’s because of some clumsy emotion like that… Alright, I understand. But what about you, Ian? Are you really okay with this? My sister slept with my husband. How can you possibly love such a woman?”
“That’s exactly why you’re foolish. Someone as dull as you wouldn’t understand true love.”
“So I’m a fool because I don’t understand love?”
“Exactly.”
Sesenia barely suppressed a laugh born of sheer disbelief. This was utter madness. Yet Ian wore a rapturous expression, as if he had already fallen deeply in love.
“Elder Sister always shines brightly—unlike you, who’s endlessly gloomy.”
“The woman who slept with every man she met, even stealing her own sister’s husband… is different from me?”
“Yes.”
“Love really is the domain of fools and idiots, isn’t it? If loving a woman who even bore my husband’s child counts as love, then love truly is worthless.”
Such love, which cast aside even basic morality, filled her with revulsion—so intense it made her stomach churn.
In that moment, Ian began to blame Sesenia.
“This is all your fault.”
“Now it’s my fault?”
“If you hadn’t been so greedy, none of this would have happened.”
“Greed? What exactly have I been greedy for?”
Sesenia was speechless from shock. She had never known greed in her life. She had lived only as her father wished—as a substitute for her sister. She had shouldered everything her sister refused to do. And now he accused her of greed?
“Tell me, Ian. Of all people, you—who’ve watched me most closely—say that? What have I been greedy for? Was it wrong to inherit the marquisate in place of my sister, who threw tantrums saying she didn’t want to do anything or inherit the house? Was it wrong to marry the Crown Prince and become empress in her stead, when she insisted she’d never marry that reckless prince and declared he’d never become emperor?”
She had believed he was on her side.
Until she saw Ian, she had thought there must be some explanation—that he could never abandon her.
To the very end, Sesenia trusted her friend. This betrayal hurt more than the wounds inflicted by her husband’s daily infidelities, more than the pain caused by her sister sleeping with that same husband.
Because to Sesenia, Ian was not just a friend—he was the only person she truly trusted.
“So the real fool was me all along.”
She had never understood those who justified their own affairs, as if they were living some grand romance or legendary love. Even now, she still couldn’t comprehend it.
Perhaps because she herself had never experienced passionate love, but to her, love was the worst thing imaginable—a selfish emotion that caused pain to others, utterly devoid of beauty or romance.
Sesenia gave a bitter laugh.
“Go on, Ian. Why don’t you speak? Is it because you have nothing to say? You know I haven’t been greedy for anything. And love? It’s impossible anyway, isn’t it? So what do you plan to do now? Stop thinking nonsense and—”
At that moment—
No matter what Sesenia said, he didn’t seem affected in the slightest. Instead, he clicked his tongue, looking at her with disdain.
“So you really want to crawl through life like this, desperate just to survive?”
“……”
“Love will be fulfilled someday. If I keep caring for her, eventually she’ll see me. That’s why I’m enduring all this now. After all, His Highness’s reputation with women is quite infamous—he’ll leave her alone eventually.”
“So what if she’s left alone? What changes then?”
“People naturally notice those who stay by their side when they’re lonely. In the end, Elder Sister will come to me. And I will become emperor—for her.”
“You really… are quite the romantic, aren’t you?”
The thought that he had hidden these feelings while standing beside her, all the while doing things that benefited Elzer, sent chills down her spine. He had helped Elzer and trampled over her.
“Thank you for letting me use you. Thanks to you, I grew closer to Elder Sister.”
“Hah…”
If it had been her sister using her—using her to obtain what she wanted—it might have felt less unjust. But this? Her old friend, with whom marriage had once been discussed, acting this way—it was utterly incomprehensible.
“Really… why… did I ever trust you?”
“Because you’re foolish.”
“You’re right. I must be utterly stupid to fall for such an obvious trick.”
Just then—
“Sesenia. My dear little sister Sesenia.”
The sound of clicking heels announced the newcomer—Elzer.
“Oh.”
In her arms was a tiny infant.
“I’m dying tomorrow, so I had to see my niece one last time before I go. Ah—no, not my niece… my husband’s child, I suppose. What should I even call her? Your little girl is ours.”
Seeing Elzer smirk like that made Sesenia’s blood run cold.
“…Is that really something you say to my face right now?”
“It is. So… you should’ve known your place. Even as empress, why did you act so outrageously?”
“Outrageously? I… I spared you because you were still my sister and only sent you away… If I’d killed you, at least I wouldn’t feel so unjustly treated!!”
“Exactly. You did nothing. That’s why you should’ve killed me. Who do you think you are, some great saint, sending me off like that? Fool.”
“…Do you… really feel any remorse toward me? Were your apologies ever sincere?”
“How naive. Did you really think I felt sorry for you?”
Sesenia trembled violently.
“What did you say…?”
“I deliberately approached the emperor, understand? After giving it to you, I regretted it. It was supposed to be my place… and it felt like you’d stolen it from me. So I did what I did.”
“…So it was all on purpose…? How… how can everyone do this to me…? How… someone who’s family… someone who’s a friend…? Hah… How can you do this?”
“Sesenia.”
At that moment, Elzer handed her child briefly to Ian and stepped firmly toward Sesenia.
Then, she gently stroked Sesenia’s hand, which hung from the iron bars.
“Still, I’ll make good use of the house you worked so hard to build. And the empress’s position too. Thank you.”
“……”
“Well done, my dear sister.”
“Was it really all you ever wanted?”
“Yes. What made you think a woman like you deserved to have everything? The house was originally mine. But just because you did slightly better, Father handed everything over to you completely. I couldn’t stand seeing that. So I only wanted to take back what was mine.”
Sesenia shook her head slowly.
“For such a petty reason?”
“Petty? That’s a huge reason, little sister. It feels truly vile to have what’s yours stolen. So you should’ve stopped boasting so much. Everyone always praised me as smarter and more beautiful than my younger sister—but suddenly, everyone started praising you instead. ‘Look how exceptional the younger sister is!’ they’d say, ‘famous throughout the empire, a new kind of woman!’ How ridiculous that looked. Knowing you only held that position because you’d stolen what was mine, then acting so proud… I hated it.”
But Sesenia couldn’t utter a word. Perhaps it was the paralyzing shock of betrayal from those she’d trusted—but then she noticed something odd about the hand Elzer had just touched.
“Ah…”
“So… stop your nonsense and die quietly.”
Sesenia’s body stiffened gradually. Her mind remained clear, yet her body collapsed to the floor without any reflexive movement. Though she couldn’t move, the pain remained.
“Ah… wh… what… are you… doing…”
“I don’t want to hear you spouting nonsense before you die tomorrow. So… I know a bit about herbs… and gave you a poison. You probably won’t be able to speak until you die. So goodbye. I’ll live well—with everything you worked so hard to build. Farewell.”
As if to mock her further, Elzer even pulled her infant’s tiny hand free to wave a greeting at Sesenia. Sesenia wanted to say something, to ask more—but her mouth and body refused to move.
“How foolish… what was it I ever wanted?”
What had she truly desired?
“Just a single drop of affection?”
Capable Sesenia. Intelligent Sesenia. Yet no matter how hard she tried, she never received her family’s love.
“I just… wanted to hear someone say ‘well done.'”
They say that when you’re about to die, your life flashes before your eyes like a reel of film. Though it wasn’t yet her time, memories flooded back to Sesenia. She couldn’t even recall why she’d clung so desperately to this place.
Now, as everything drew to a close, she finally remembered.
She had only ever longed for a single word of praise—a word that would let her feel she truly existed as herself. That was why she had fought so desperately. Unlike her sister, who received love just by existing, she had always felt like an impurity.
Though neither her father nor her sister ever said it outright, people had even whispered that Sesenia might not truly be the marquis’s daughter—their lack of resemblance was that stark.
As if to prove it, her father had always treated her with cold formality.
“All this desperate struggle… was just… to be recognized.”
Even as her body grew numb, tears streamed from her eyes. Rage and hatred mingled with a quiet relief—knowing she no longer had to continue that futile fight.
Amid the flowing moments of time, Sesenia recalled one secret of their house.
When the male lead is punished by carrying the female lead’s child and having periods like a woman
“I’ve given birth to two children for you, yet you still think about him.
Was I nothing but his substitute to you from beginning to end?”
Synopsis:
Meng Huan, a scumbag who has dated countless girlfriends, transmigrates to a female-dominated country.
Day 1: Whether it’s female dominance or not doesn’t matter. The beauties here are passionate and amorous. Isn’t it easier to date them than in modern times?
Day 2: After a night, Meng Huan discovers the differences in the female-dominated world. Men here actually have chastity locks and menstrual cycles. This hinders his ability to perform, damn it!
Day 3: What’s wrong with sleeping around? I don’t want you to marry me. I’m meant to be a playboy. I don’t care about male virtues… What? You want to drown me in a pig cage? Marry, I’ll marry!
Day N: Meng Huan inexplicably vomits and receives the shocking news of his life… He’s pregnant.
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