Even if Your Regret Holds Me Back (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 148
“It really took you a long time.”
Walter added softly. Though she knew it couldn’t be true, Helena felt as if her faded life had finally been understood.
Walter stared fixedly at the clouds drifting lazily across the sky and spoke flatly.
“I first held a sword at ten years old. It took me twenty years to truly understand it, yet I never realized it would take even longer to let go of a single person. Perhaps because I’m a knight who wields his sword stubbornly, I’ve come to treat longing just like a habit.”
Helena thought her stomach churned. Her nose began to sting, and her vision blurred.
“Just like eating three meals a day or training at a set time—I thought of them punctually, as if it were perfectly natural, like a habit. There’s no heavier shackle than clinging to affection that’s already gone.”
Clinging affection. Shackles.
For a moment, Helena heard a deep, resonant cry from somewhere. She rubbed her eyes, but it wasn’t her tears. She listened again—and finally heard it.
Inside her heart, a monster… an elephant, was weeping.
The shadow of the monster that had been devouring her was, in fact, an elephant—an adult already fully grown, yet unable to move forward, bound by the past.
“But it seems the time has finally come. So, if you feel that moment has arrived for you too, my lady, don’t hesitate—leap without fear. That farewell isn’t worthy of the life you’ve lived.”
The elephant had finally escaped. It tore free from its stake, cried out freely, and ran off—departing for a place it would never return to. And that was alright.
Helena felt a gentle shiver ripple through her entire body. It was as if the blood swirling beneath her skin had stopped instantly, then started flowing again. No matter how many times she swallowed, the lump in her throat wouldn’t subside.
Sniffling, Helena murmured,
“If Eugene had heard what you just said, he might’ve fainted.”
The Male lead Always Seduces Her with His Beauty (Matriarchy)
Xin Jiao Zhou is the leader of the world’s premier sect. She has just experienced betrayal from all sides, was poisoned in an assassination attempt, and faced death squad attacks while the poison was taking effect. After finally clearing out the scum from her sect, she was drugged again while trying to detoxify.
After waking up from a night of unconsciousness, she gained a “beautiful and kind-hearted” husband.
Xin Jiao Zhou: “???”
He fell ill.
She came to see him, bringing breakfast.
As she put down the breakfast and was about to leave, his hand slipped while holding the spoon. “Clank!”
She turned around upon hearing the noise.
He looked up at her, his eyebrows drooping: “My hand… has no strength.”
“Shall I… feed you?” she asked tentatively.
He opened his mouth cheerfully: “Ah—”
Thinking she was drowning, he jumped in without hesitation to save her, but nearly drowned himself. In the end, it was she who swam over to rescue him, giving him air underwater.
After emerging from the water, his ear tips turned red. He lightly brushed his cheek, tucking his sideburns behind his ear, revealing delicate, pink-tinged ear tips. He lowered his gaze, too embarrassed to look at her.
Xin Jiao Zhou: He’s truly beautiful, kind-hearted, and adorable.
A certain someone when disciplining subordinates behind the scenes: “If they don’t obey, just kill them.”
What’s that? She might already have someone she cares about in her heart? A certain someone: Find out who it is, kill them, and then there won’t be anyone.
What? She met a man by the riverside? What? That man even hurt her? A certain someone: Whichever hand hurt her, chop off his entire arm.
Love at first sight without realizing it, gradually falling in love, slowly getting closer…
Family and national grudges, schemes and desires, good and evil, crime and punishment, she and he face the future together, seeking justice with passion!
A naturally dark female lead who could accidentally destroy the world but is actually an honest person VS a weak, pitiful, and helpless but skilled fighter, beautiful white-cut black male lead
My heart is not of stone, how steadfast is your love? — Tao Yuanming “Imitating the Ancients (No. 3)”
— Reading Guide —
Cold female lead & dramatic black lotus with hidden yandere traits male lead
Helena saw our anger at Natasha, waiting for Natasha to be completely destroyed.
Does Helena want to come up with a new nickname for herself every time.
Helena will definitely ask for help with the divorce.