As If I've Never Loved (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 37
“I… I have something I’d like to ask.”
That single sentence instantly froze the previously warm dinner table.
Mr. Bailey, who had been about to spear a roasted cabbage with his fork, awkwardly set his utensil down, shattering the silence at the table.
“Elsie, has something happened?”
The flickering candlelight cast deep shadows over his noticeably haggard face.
Though it pained Eloise deeply to look at her father, she answered without revealing her feelings.
“Would it be all right if I returned to the capital again?”
“What? Why?”
“It’s becoming harder and harder to stay at home. I’ve tried my best, but nothing seems to get better.”
“…”
In truth, Eloise had stepped outside the front door only a handful of times since returning. She no longer went to church, nor even rolled up her sleeves to feed the ducks.
Ever since her evening walk with Archibald two weeks prior, even leaving her room felt overwhelming.
Naturally, her days had come to consist solely of sleeping or lost in thought.
Whenever family members spoke to her kindly, she would offer only a lifeless, wilted-flower smile, rarely opening her mouth to speak.
Sometimes she slept for entire days on end, as though fleeing reality into dreams.
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Male lead fell into her trap — and shattered when she walked away
This is also on my reread list!
This one is a slow burn, but when it burns, it burns hard.
Definitely worth a read, y’all!

The story follows a thousand-year-old seductive spirit who, on a bet, sets out to charm the male lead—a once-promising but unfortunate cultivator.
But just when she succeeds in making him fall for her, she heartlessly leaves, driving him to madness.
Determined to find her at all costs, he captures her, keeping her by his side no matter what, even if she hates him.
I love this kind of trope—I enjoy watching the male lead suffer in agony.
The ending drags a bit with unnecessary filler, but that’s fine.
As long as I enjoy the beginning, I’m good.
Intro
As an enchantress, Su Heng possesses captivating eyes and charming beauty, easily manipulating the joys and sorrows of living beings at her fingertips.
But to enchant a god, making him taste the bitterness of love’s separation, long-lasting resentment, unattainable desires, and inability to let go…
Do you dare?
Su Heng assists a divine lord in his cultivation, aiming to make him experience all the sufferings of love, so that he can attain the Great Dao.
Only after being chased down from the heavens by the divine lord, confined and completely possessed by him, does she realize how successful she has been.
The once gentle and polite youth has transformed into someone she no longer recognizes.
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applehead jackson Chapter 38 — Paragraph 96that protecting the family as the eldest daughter was all that mattered to her n
She’s a fucking angel 😭😭😭😭 Ansel kiss my ass i hope you suffer
applehead jackson Chapter 39 — Paragraph 44“Don’t come looking for me here again.”
Because you’re a motherfucking pain in the ass 😒😡 that’s why
applehead jackson Chapter 40 — Paragraph 1On the second day she left home, Eloise was composed, without shedding a single
How beautiful her family is! Not everyone has that strong bond 🥺
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Where is the 100 and 101 chapters 💔💔💔😭😭😭 why it is not here