While waiting for Sunwoo, Hyeji continued to bite her nails. Tension built up as she clenched her fist, swallowing hard.
Did she watch the CCTV? What thoughts crossed her mind while watching? What did she think I had done?
Even if misunderstandings arise, there doesn’t seem to be a way to justify it. It was a simulation that had played out in my mind countless times.
If the marriage were to be postponed, would there be an opportunity for me? I thought that at the time. How foolish.
Shortly after, Sunwoo emerged, closing the door to the hospital room. When our eyes briefly met, it felt like I couldn’t breathe. I quickly averted my gaze.
Nodding briefly at Sunwoo’s suggestion to go to the professor’s office, I quietly followed behind him.
The steps toward the professor’s office felt heavy.
There was no conversation between us, and there were few people passing by. The surroundings were silent and still.
How did we end up like this? How did we come this far?
Can we go back to the way things used to be?
Lost in various thoughts, Sunwoo’s footsteps came to a halt. Hyeji’s gaze, which had been lowered to the ground all this time, rose.
Unbeknownst to her, they were in front of the professor’s office. Hyeji, who entered the office, scanned Sunwoo’s professor’s office with her eyes.
It was a place she hadn’t visited in a long time. It used to be a space where they came and went freely, like a hideout. Perhaps because it had been so long, nothing had changed, but it felt strangely unfamiliar and uncomfortable.
Seated on the sofa, Sunwoo asked if she wanted coffee. I just nodded without saying anything. I couldn’t muster the courage to face him.
Sitting on the opposite sofa, Sunwoo sighed deeply. In the quiet professor’s office, the sound of his sigh echoed particularly loudly.
“I watched the CCTV.”
Hearing Sunwoo’s words, Hyeji felt her heart sink. She had thought about whether he had watched the CCTV after hearing about the resident they had encountered that day.
So you watched it. As expected, you suspected me.
Although she had expected him to suspect her, hearing that he had indeed watched the CCTV brought an unexpected feeling of discomfort.
Even after 13 years… You still don’t know me too well.
The day Sunwoo’s mother-in-law collapsed.
I wanted to explain that my actions at the foundation anniversary party, driven by jealousy, were a misunderstanding. I wanted to somehow rewind the distant relationship.
“It was a misunderstanding, just a misunderstanding.”
“A misunderstanding? Am I a fool? There was no misunderstanding. I saw it with my own eyes.”
If I had been honest and apologized to you at that time, wouldn’t things have turned out differently?
My hasty actions deepened the misunderstanding between us, and our relationship became more strained.
“Listen to me—”
“Professor Ju Hyeji, stop it and get ready for the examination.”
Seeing your cold gaze and cold actions, I felt that you and I had already drifted too far to turn back. Only then did I truly realize.
The actions and words you showed me that day were telling me so.
Even so, it was difficult for me to give up on you. No, I couldn’t give up until the end.
It was just one step closer.
It was just one step closer, but why is even that not tolerated by me?
If I take one step back, will our relationship change a bit? Can we go back to how it used to be?
To the point where we could share personal stories, joke around, and laugh together, albeit not lightly.
In the midst of such thoughts, I encountered Miss Ji Eunjae in front of the hospital room.
Strangely, I got angry. Angry at that woman who occupied the place beside you that I couldn’t have.
It must have been jealousy. I carefully chose stories that would be hurtful. I genuinely wished that the woman would be hurt. I hoped she would disappear from your side.
That’s how it was back then. It seemed like everything would be resolved if only that woman disappeared.
But that woman.
“If what you said was to hurt me, I’ll take the hurt. It’s not entirely wrong. But, Teacher.”
“I won’t crumble from that level of hurt.”
She was really sturdy. So, I wanted to break her even more.
“I know you don’t trust me, but I—”
“I saw you lingering in front of the door for a long time, and coming out of the room shortly after you went in. I saw everything.”
“When I went into the room at that time, just for a moment…”
Even you, who had been by my side for 13 years, hadn’t opened your heart to me. That woman, who hadn’t opened the door despite knocking for 13 years, had opened it.
I hated it all. So, I harbored ill feelings.
If I could retrieve you, if I could do anything to get you back, I thought I could do anything. I thought I could, but…
When I stood before it, I couldn’t bring myself to do that much.
Because you are my patient.
My patient, whom I must take responsibility for and care for.
A doctor is someone who protects a person’s life.
Just like you said, being a doctor has been a long-standing dream for me too.
“I understand. You haven’t done anything.”
“…”
When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem
This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
Synopsis:
“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”
Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.
Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.
While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…
Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.
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