“Anyway, you should have waited. Even if you didn’t say anything, you should have stayed here. If you were coming, you should have come when there were people. You never know what might happen.”
‘I knew it would be like this.’
She was filled with thoughts of how to avoid Jaehyuk when she met him at the wedding.
She never imagined that something like this would happen.
Even though she thought he didn’t intend it, Aileen’s mood sank.
Jaehyuk hurriedly spoke when he noticed that her expression had worsened.
“Ah, sorry. I just…”
But even with Jaehyuk’s apology, Aileen’s mood didn’t improve; in fact, it plunged deeper into a pit.
‘Why are you getting angry?’
Why like this?
Emotions that had been swirling deep inside surged up.
“Purposely… It’s not like that, so why are you getting mad?”
Aileen bit her lower lip tightly and tears burst out, whether it was because of the recent traumatic event or disappointment, or why she was acting like this.
The tears that had burst out once didn’t stop.
“Aileen…”
He didn’t say it to scold her. If he hadn’t shown up there, the worst-case scenario for Aileen automatically came to mind, which made him angry.
‘Jaehyuk, you idiot.’
Jaehyuk quickly wiped away Aileen’s tears. However, she didn’t allow his touch.
His hand, lost in space, hung in the air.
“I just thought that maybe you had experienced something bad. Just imagining it drove me crazy… so.”
‘Why are you so thoughtless? You…’
Jaehyuk gritted his teeth in frustration at his own shortcomings and deficiencies. He had never considered himself lacking in any way from the moment he was born.
People in the world called him a perfect man without a single flaw.
But in front of Aileen, he was always a man who was inadequate and clumsy.
‘Nothing has changed. You, Jaehyuk.’
Jaehyuk bit down on his own lack and insufficiency. He didn’t intend to hurt Aileen, but in the end, he ended up hurting her.
Certainly, here is the translation of the Korean paragraph verbatim into English, preserving the exact line breaks:
To stop her tears, he felt like he could do something, anything…
“Really, you’re so mean. Seriously.”
“…”
“I really hate you. I hate you so much.”
Seeing her cry uncontrollably shattered his heart.
‘Aileen, you’re right. I’m a bad guy.’
Even if it was for her, it was ultimately for his own heart.
What she needed was not an analysis of why things happened but comforting her heart.
The person who must have found this situation the most difficult and terrifying was not him but her.
First, he needed to hold her and reassure her.
“How scared I was.”
If she cried, he wanted to cry too. If she laughed, he couldn’t help but smile.
Right now… he wanted to cry.
“I’m sorry. I never meant to blame you.”
He was selfish and foolish.
“Sob.”
It seemed like there was no way to comfort her heart with any words.
Thinking that he had become even more distant from her, Jaehyuk felt bitter resentment toward his past self.
Jaehyuk grabbed Aileen’s shoulders. Hoping that this time she wouldn’t push his hand away…
Fortunately, she didn’t reject his hand.
“I’m sorry.”
With a heart that welled up with emotions, Jaehyuk lowered his head deeply.
He didn’t know how to express himself, but he opened his mouth, hoping that his sincerity would reach her…
“I was wrong.”
“…”
Startled by Jaehyuk’s words, Aileen raised her head.
‘Wrong…?’
He was lowering his head, so Aileen couldn’t see Jaehyuk’s expression.
‘Now, Oppa…’
His broad shoulders were trembling. A wet voice echoed in her ears.
Aileen felt like she knew what he was thinking.
“I’m sorry. Really.”
She couldn’t tell what he was thinking.
But the ‘apology’ in his words was sincere.
“Sorry for not being able to comfort your heart.”
My heart?
Now or… in the past?
Jaehyuk’s words had a significant impact on Aileen’s heart.
He leaned against her a little more. His warm breath touched her ear. Aileen knew what he would do next.
‘If I want to push him away, it’s now. Now…’
But her body couldn’t move.
In the midst of hesitation, he embraced her.
‘Even now, I can break free.’
Thump, thump. His heart was beating rapidly. Maybe even bigger and faster than hers.
With an awkward gesture, he slowly swept her back.
‘It’s too late. It’s too late…’
He wanted to say it, but his lips wouldn’t move.
In his clumsy and awkward touch, his desire to comfort her heart came through clearly.
‘Fool, idiot. You idiot.’
Aileen couldn’t push away the warmth enveloping her.
Inconsistently acting in this way, Aileen pretended not to notice the mismatched behavior.
After a series of twists and turns, Aileen and Jaehyuk finally entered the wedding hall together.
From the moment they entered with Jaehyuk, they could feel people’s eyes on them. Even in the midst of the ongoing ceremony, the sharp gazes and whispers of the people didn’t stop.
Aileen wanted to capture Yoojung’s happy moments, but the constant attention felt burdensome.
She tried hard not to pay attention to her surroundings and focused only on Yoojung.
After a while, she greeted her parents-in-law and saw Yoojung shedding tears. A strange feeling washed over her, even though they weren’t blood-related sisters.
‘Unnie…’
Seeing Yoojung cry as she got married, Aileen’s emotions became complicated, and tears welled up in her eyes.
She thought for a moment, and in front of her, a familiar handkerchief with a scent was offered. He said,
“I want to wipe them away, but I know you’ll refuse, so take it.”
Aileen’s large eyes, looking down at the handkerchief, trembled violently. The initials and pattern engraved on the handkerchief were very familiar.
V.J.H
It was the handkerchief she had given to Jaehyuk in the past.
She thought he had thrown it away, but it was right in front of her.
When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem
This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
Synopsis:
“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”
Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.
Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.
While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…
Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.
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