“Oppa seems strange lately. In my opinion, he can’t let go of the lingering hope that you will come back.”
“You were like that. Oppa still hasn’t changed the owner’s name for Memoria. When I asked, he said he would come soon, so why bother.”
Until she heard from Jiyoon, Arin thought Yoo Hyun was struggling but forgetting about her.
“Oppa doesn’t seem normal. It feels like he’s obsessed, with you.”
Arin felt guilty after hearing Jiyoon’s words. It seemed that she was the one who ruined Yoo Hyun, whom she trusted and liked like family.
‘I stated it clearly, but maybe I gave Oppa lingering feelings. So I need to be more certain. Even if Oppa comes to hate me.’
For Yoo Hyun, for herself, and for him, it was necessary to make a clear decision.
“Oppa is right. I love Jeahyuk Oppa.”
At Arin’s words, Yoo Hyun’s eyes shook fiercely.
“Are you saying that in front of me!”
“…Sorry.”
“Don’t say sorry.”
The clashed gazes in the air shook fiercely.
‘In the end…’
Seeing the crumbling Yoo Hyun, Arin’s heart also crumbled.
Her feeble curiosity that pretended not to want to lose Yoo Hyun worsened the situation.
‘I’ve given Oppa an unbearable wound.’
With tears welling up, Arin spoke while trying to hold back her emotions.
“I pretended not to know Oppa’s feelings toward me when you might be wounded. I’m sorry.”
At Arin’s words, Yoo Hyun shouted again.
“Stop. Just say sorry. Didn’t I say it last time? The words you want to hear from me are not those, you know.”
Yoo Hyun shook Arin’s shoulders roughly.
“I also said. Oppa, and I are not for each other. I can’t hear the words you want from Oppa. The person I love is Jeahyuk Oppa, not Oppa. So, Oppa, you’re not a man for me for the rest of my life.”
Arin’s words became a dagger that pierced Yoo Hyun’s heart.
“…What?”
Something in Yoo Hyun’s mind snapped.
He didn’t know if reason remained, but he knew that all that was left in him was emotions.
Love…?
Did he dare… say he loved someone?
“Who loves whom? I can’t be your man for the rest of my life?”
Yoo Hyun grabbed Arin’s shoulders and shook her.
“Who comforted you when you were struggling? Was it him? No. When you cried, couldn’t sleep, and stayed up all night until dawn, who stood by you? It was me! It was me who watched over your life like hell for three years, not that man Jeahyuk!”
Yoo Hyun completely collapsed.
“How could I… What did I do for you? How can you say you love that man in front of me?”
“Sincerely, I appreciate that part. If it weren’t for Oppa, Mom, and Jiyoon, I couldn’t have endured until now.”
“Even knowing…”
How could you do this to me?
Yoo Hyun couldn’t suppress the rising anger.
“You shouldn’t do this to me. That man will only hurt you again. What has that man done for you? He should be by my side.”
“Oppa.”
“If he made you so grateful and let you live, he should be by my side!”
Yoo Hyun shouted with wide-open eyes.
There was nothing he could see through the obsession created by his intense love.
“How much do I love you… Why do you go to a man who hurt you instead of me? I have confidence that I won’t make you cry, so how can you do this to me?”
Love overflowing like it would burst his heart and deep-seated resentment boiling up from within his heart left his mind in turmoil.
Yoo Hyun bowed his head deeply and rested his head on Arin’s delicate shoulders. Her shoulders trembled.
“Oppa.”
Arin’s shoulders absorbed his head. Yoo Hyun was crying.
‘Whenever I cried, Oppa always comforted me, silently watching over me until the tears stopped. Now, I have nothing to offer Oppa. I’m sorry, Oppa.’
Arin feared that her casual words and actions might sow expectations in Yoo Hyun’s heart again. In the end, Arin withdrew the hand reaching for Yoo Hyun’s back.
“Sorry. Truly sorry, Oppa.”
After a while, Arin’s whispered words made Yoo Hyun’s emotions surge.
The warmth that had been in his hands disappeared.
Arin’s voice, which had been trembling, resonated in his mind.
‘Is this what you want? Seo Yoo Hyun, is this what you want?’
Yoo Hyun clenched his fist so tightly that his veins were about to burst.
This kind of emotion was new, and his heart was confused. He couldn’t grasp the contradictory feelings raging inside him.
‘Why… Why don’t you love me?’
It wasn’t like this when Haya left without saying a word.
It was sad and heartbreaking, but that was it. Honestly, over time, Haya’s image became more and more blurred.
However, he couldn’t control his feelings toward Arin. He felt anger and resentment despite loving her.
Disintegration?
No!
Yoo Hyun turned around and looked at the place where Arin had already disappeared.
‘For Arin.’
Because you will undoubtedly become unhappy by that man’s side… Because I’m the only one who can make you happy!
Yoo Hyun rationalized his actions as he sorted out his emotions.
“I’m doing this for Arin. If she goes the wrong way, I’ll correct her. If words don’t work, I’ll correct her even by force.”
A twisted love overflowed in his gaze.
The feelings of sacrifice for her that he had harbored had turned into resentment.
When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem
This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
Synopsis:
“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”
Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.
Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.
While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…
Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.
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