To You Who No Longer Want Me - Chapter 5

Biare, who had hurriedly returned to Duke Ruschef’s mansion, was quietly passing through the corridor that the maid had previously informed her about.

Perhaps because it was a busy dinner time, as she had said, there were no servants to be seen in the corridor.

Rushing back to her room, Biare changed into an indoor dress with the help of her maid who was waiting in advance.

Just as she was breathing a sigh of relief that no one seemed to have noticed her outing, someone knocked on the door three times.

“Come in.”

“My lady, the Duke has returned. It’s almost dinner time, shall I call the other maids?”

It seemed that her hair, which she hadn’t had time to tidy up in her haste to return, was disheveled.

Feeling embarrassed, Biare scratched one cheek with her hand and nodded, and soon the maids entered to help with her attire once again.

By the time she had finished all her preparations and went down to the dining room, the Duke and Gaizen were already waiting for her.

The fifteen-year-old Gaizen had the fresh face of a boy, far from the appearance of a grown man.

Seeing this, Biare couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle.

‘He seemed quite cute at this age.’

Perhaps hearing her laugh, her father turned his head and greeted Biare warmly.

“Come, sit down, Bia.”

“Yes, Father.”

It seemed that the two had been in the middle of a conversation, but for some reason, it ended as if there had been no discussion at all when she appeared.

Worried that her father might have scolded her brother, Biare carefully observed his expression, but fortunately, Gaizen seemed unaffected.

The long table, intricately crafted from natural marble, was piled high with delicious-looking food.

“Thank you for allowing us to have another delicious meal today. May the Ruschef family always receive the blessings of Ekarto.”

As always, the three of them closed their eyes and prayed with their hands together.

Biare was only sipping the warm soup bit by bit, not touching any of the other food.

Her mind was constantly swirling with questions about the news of Verdeum Marquis’s death notice, but she knew her father was unlikely to give her a straightforward answer.

“Bia, is the food not to your liking?”

The Duke looked at his daughter with worried eyes, and Biare shook her head slightly as she replied.

“No, it’s not that. I’m just feeling a bit dizzy.”

“Oh dear. Should I call for a physician?”

“I’ll be fine after I get some sleep.”

The Duke nodded briefly, then turned his gaze to his son, who was the spitting image of his crimson eyes.

“This one eats so well, I don’t think we need to worry about him.”

Despite his words, the Duke’s gaze was filled with affection for his son.

Biare glanced at her younger brother and then turned her gaze away, agreeing with the Duke’s words.

“Indeed.”

At those words, Gaizen frowned slightly with a reddened face and grumbled softly.

“Everyone eats this much.”

Gaizen’s jet-black hair often reminded her of her mother.

Despite being at an age when he desperately needed a mother’s touch, Gaizen Ruschef was a considerate child who never showed his feelings, fearing that Biare and the Duke might be saddened.

He would often complain about the charity events and social gatherings hosted by the Duke’s family, but in the end, he would participate more actively than anyone else.

Biare was only worried that Gaizen seemed to have become excessively quiet around this time.

When he was younger, her brother was simply adorable, but from around the time he turned fifteen, she started to feel a growing distance between them.

There were children who became extremely sensitive due to physical and hormonal changes as secondary sexual characteristics appeared, and Gaizen seemed to be one of them.

She had thought that once this period passed, he would eventually return to his former self, but Biare felt somewhat hurt by her brother’s slightly changed demeanor.

Nevertheless, she had no intention of trying to improve their estranged relationship.

She already knew well that she couldn’t forcibly maintain a relationship just because she wanted to change it or desired it.

Biare intended to be a pillar of support for Gaizen, just as she had been before, to the extent that he could rely on her.

She would only play the role of quietly solidifying his position behind the scenes, without Gaizen knowing, to ensure he wouldn’t face difficult situations.

‘At first, no one can be detached.’

She hoped that at least her brother would not be hurt by petty glances and insults.

Biare eventually returned to her bedroom without finishing her meal, using a headache as an excuse.

With the help of her dressing maid, she changed into a chemise and dismissed everyone from the room to gather her thoughts.

She had already informed them that she wouldn’t be participating in dinner, so she didn’t need to leave the room for the rest of the day.

Biare, still experiencing a slight headache from the effects of the ‘Eye of Truth’, opened the window.

As she felt the gentle breeze blowing from afar, her mind seemed to clear up considerably.

If Manolin, Biare’s personal maid, had seen this, she would have scolded her about catching a cold, but she was away on a short vacation.

The view from Biare’s room overlooked a path where people rarely passed, making it a good place to organize her thoughts alone.

She sat absentmindedly by the window, staring at the large tree.

It was the same tree she had looked at every day for the past year before returning to the past, but Biare never tired of seeing it.

Checking the condition of the large tree with her own eyes had now become part of her daily routine.

Of course, this wasn’t the room Biare had used from the beginning.

The room she had used before was the one with the best lighting in the Duke’s mansion, which the Duke and his wife had personally prepared for her even before she was born.

Despite it being a room filled with affection, young Biare had asked to move rooms simply because she wanted to be close to the big, majestic tree.

The Duke was reluctant to let her give up the best room and move.

But when his usually well-behaved daughter threw a tantrum, the Duke and his wife had no choice but to change her room, and Gaizen, who had been waiting for the opportunity, took over the room she had originally used.

The Duke often threatened the then four-year-old Gaizen, saying he would move him back to his original room if he kept causing trouble.

A smile spread across Biare’s face as she recalled those peaceful times.

Just then, she heard someone knocking on the door three times, and Biare got down from the windowsill where she had been sitting.

At the door stood the servant she had assigned a task to before going to the dining room.

He seemed to have successfully carried out her order to obtain dried leaves of Densipolia, as he handed over a bottle full of them.

Biare sat down in the mahogany desk chair and fiddled with the dried Densipolia leaves in the bottle.

The more she thought about Dension, the more she missed him desperately.

“Sion, what should I do now?”

She had returned to the past to save him, but there were many constraints on what the sixteen-year-old Biare could do.

Until she became an adult, she always had to be accompanied by three guard knights whenever she left the family grounds, and even then, outings were not permitted except for social gatherings.

She didn’t want to put Dension in a difficult situation because of her own desires.

But she couldn’t just wait idly until she turned eighteen and became an adult, so she let out a deep sigh.

She was afraid that if she didn’t have at least the dried Densipolia leaves in front of her, his existence might disappear forever.

“I hope you can be happy now.”

‘I’ll make sure of it.’

It was fine even if she couldn’t meet him.

She just desperately hoped that he wouldn’t be killed like in her past life.

Of course, Dension doesn’t remember the current Biare.

In such a situation, if she were to go to him and embrace him happily, wouldn’t he be disgusted, thinking he had met some strange woman in broad daylight?

Biare shook her head at this ridiculous imagination.

Come to think of it, her first meeting with Dension was the worst it could be, and she couldn’t say it was good by any means.

It was something she could never have predicted that she would come to like him, so Biare closed her eyes tightly and recalled their first meeting.

* * *

She first met Dension on the day when a grand banquet was held at the Duke’s mansion to celebrate Biare’s seventeenth birthday.

Biare’s first birthday after her debutante at sixteen coincided with the autumn social season, and many young nobles from various territories were gathering in the capital.

The Duke, as if intending to make the wealth of the Ruschef family seem immeasurable, had signed several blank checks for the budget of this banquet.

The reason he flaunted his wealth like this was because although the Ruschef family was one of the wealthiest in the empire, their noble bloodline was not very deep.

The first generation of the Ruschef family was a commoner family that had amassed wealth by operating the largest merchant guild in the capital. They had offered vast amounts of treasure to the imperial family and provided counsel, thus receiving the title of Count.

Although their rank was lower than that of high nobles, they had secured a position as the wealthiest and closest central nobility to the imperial family in the empire.

However, the Ruschef family did not stop at that title.

Biare’s ancestor, going back several generations from the current one, had been waiting for an opportunity and finally received recognition for their merits, earning the title of Duke.

For a long time, there had been ongoing wars to claim Hailon, the land of gold, and the Marta Empire was facing great difficulties in food supply and equipment provision.

Neighboring countries were merely observing, not daring to step forward and help while watching the warring countries.

At this time, the Ruschef Count family, using the connections they had built through their merchant guild, received support for war supplies from other countries and led the victory alongside the imperial family.

In recognition of their outstanding contributions, the Ruschef Count family rose to the rank of Duke in one fell swoop.

However, despite the merits they had accumulated, there were still those who disparaged the Ruschef family.

Long-established nobles strongly opposed the idea of the Ruschef family, with their lowly merchant bloodline, continuing to hold such a noble title.

When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem

This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.

Synopsis:

“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”

Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.

Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.

While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the  Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…

Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.

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