To You Who No Longer Want Me - Chapter 34

Biare, who had put down the dance shoes she had been holding in her hand, felt an indescribable sense of complexity.

When recalling the happy days of the past, her heart would swell with joy, but she couldn’t help but realize that it was happiness she could no longer grasp.

Once, she believed without a doubt that she would always be by Dension’s side.

However, he from the past eventually left her side.

Perhaps this was the result of her own arrogance and pride.

After her regression, many things were changing around her. Including Dension, who would not be with her forever. Whenever she thought of Dension, she couldn’t make sense of the conflicting emotions of happiness and pain.

“I’m fine. As long as you can live.”

All Biare could say was that she was fine, trying to comfort herself.

Now, the only fortune for her would be for Dension to survive and not die.

If that wish could be fulfilled, Biare would ask for nothing more.

Sometimes, she had to be satisfied with just recalling their past that only she knew.

Since she was now the only one who remembered the memories with Dension, Biare would never forget and forever recreate them.

By the time she lay down on the bed prepared by the maids, she could see a blue light emanating from the mahogany desk drawer.

Hurriedly getting up and opening the drawer, she found a card emitting a shimmering blue light.

It was the magical item received from Burnawood 34.

It seemed that the time for Biare to meet the one called the Absence of God had finally been set.

As soon as she touched the card, blue letters were engraved on it.

‘Return of the Absence of God, Sabbath night, 10:30 PM.

The magical item, having completed its confirmation, gradually lost its light and soon disappeared completely.

Biare, who had been anxiously waiting for this contact, would never forget this moment.

It was an earnest and welcome fact that she could now get one step closer to the truth about his death.

“I’m sorry for making you wait, Sion. I’ll soon uncover the truth about your death.”

Biare’s birthday banquet, which had flowed differently from the past, had ended, and several more days had passed.

Ushua’s influence at the Ruschef Duke’s residence was truly remarkable, with the atmosphere of the house changing bustlingly just because of her presence.

Her existence was a great comfort to Biare, who felt grateful yet sorry for not being able to take good care of her.

When the date for Ushua’s departure was set, the one who was most disappointed was none other than the Duke.

“You’re already returning to the Eastern country, I wish you could stay a little longer.”

“Father, even if I return now, I’ll be away for almost a month. I do have a conscience.”

Ushua, who was laughing while joking, was about to leave soon, and that day was the evening of the coming Sabbath.

Her father, the head of Genshaoti, had sent an urgent messenger saying it was time for her to return as her absence had become too noticeable.

The distance to the Eastern country was considerable, so even if she hurried back, the travel time couldn’t be ignored.

“I wish I could see you off personally.”

“No, Father. I’ve already imposed on you too much.”

As it was unthinkable for a devout believer of Ekarto not to visit the temple on the Sabbath, the Duke seemed regretful that he couldn’t personally see her off.

On the other hand, Ushua, who well understood the situation in the Marta Empire, didn’t seem to mind at all.

Biare, who entered the guest room where Ushua was staying, saw the luggage that was already somewhat packed and looked visibly disappointed and regretful.

Noticing the change in her expression without her saying a word, Ushua playfully joked even more loudly.

“Don’t cry because I’m gone.”

“Am I a child?”

“Biare, sometimes you should just let it all out.”

“…”

“You’ve been looking glum ever since the birthday banquet.”

“Ushua…”

Though she had tried not to show it in front of her family, it seemed she couldn’t hide it from Ushua’s eyes.

“Do you know how worried I was when you left first that day?”

“…”

“It doesn’t seem like it was the Crown Prince baby who made you like this.”

The sharp-witted Ushua seemed to have already observed and grasped Ivan’s every move.

“…When did you notice that much?”

“Genshaoti has a really sensitive nose, you know.”

“About this matter…”

“Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone.”

Biare had been pondering all along. Whether she could make such a request to her friend.

She had been lost in all kinds of thoughts, wondering if her friend might be put in danger because of her.

“I want to help my sister. Let me do that.”

However, she decided to gather the courage to lean a little on her friend who cared for her more than anyone else.

“…Ushua, there’s something I want to ask of you.”

“Tell me. I’ll gladly do it even if it’s a difficult request.”

Biare’s one and only friend was accommodating her so she could speak comfortably.

“On the evening of the coming Sabbath, take me outside the Duke’s residence.”

At this sudden request, a worried surprise flashed across Ushua’s expression for a moment, but she tried to help Biare without asking for any reason.

“Alright, it’s best to board the luggage carriage first.”

As the future head of a wealthy family, even though she didn’t know the exact details, she must have noticed that strange currents were flowing around Biare for a while.

Biare felt immensely grateful to her for quickly organizing the situation and plan.

“But when you come to visit the Eastern country later, bring your lover with you.”

In the future, when she comes of age, Ushua would become the head of Genshaoti, so she wouldn’t be able to leave the Eastern country for long.

So she seemed to have told Biare to come visit with her lover, but Biare didn’t think she would be able to meet someone again.

She had never even imagined anyone other than Dension, and there was no space left in her mind to think of anyone else.

When Biare’s complexion gradually darkened and she didn’t respond, Ushua let out a shallow sigh.

“If that guy gives you a hard time, tell me.”

“…”

“I’ll chew him up bit by bit.”

At those words, Biare burst into laughter.

Before returning to the past, Ushua also knew Dension. Because Biare had introduced him to her friend as the person she loved.

However, in this life, she couldn’t dare to be certain if the day would come when she would get to know Dension.

Biare thought of him, whom she couldn’t meet at her birthday banquet a few days ago.

‘Would anything have changed if I had met Sion?’

Even if she had met Sion at the birthday banquet, she would have just lingered around him without being able to do anything.

Yet, the more she thought of him, the more painfully she missed him, which was something she couldn’t help.

“When I have time later.”

By then, she thought she might be traveling to the Eastern country to uncover the truth behind Dension’s death and to sort out her own feelings.

Although Biare would never be able to completely forget him and live on.

On the late evening of the Sabbath, Biare, who had pulled her robe down deeply, got out of the luggage carriage and approached a carriage that was already waiting.

Inside, Ushua was worrying about her with a concerned face.

“Biare, will you be alright alone?”

“Yes. Thank you for bringing me.”

Ushua let out a shallow sigh and hugged her tightly.

“You always need to be careful. If you need help, just say so anytime.”

“I will. I hope you return safely.”

After sending off her friend like that, Biare stepped into the dark world.

The damp, moldy smell and stench of this place didn’t become familiar no matter how many times she came.

Approaching the truth was both joyful and accompanied by fear at the same time.

As she entered Burnawood 34, a waiting clerk guided her.

“Please follow me.”

Biare followed him, carefully observing her surroundings which she hadn’t dared to examine before.

Between the dark walls were inscribed verses from the scriptures.

Biare, who was reciting the verses mindlessly, suddenly asked the clerk as those passages were so familiar.

“It seems the Absence of God worships the Ekarto God.”

“…It’s not him.”

Come to think of it, last time the vice guild master had said that it hadn’t been long since the Absence of God had changed generations.

“Have you ever seen the face of the Absence of God?”

“He always wears a mask with Mr. Fabian, so no one knows his face.”

‘So the vice guild master’s name is Fabian.’

At this unexpected gain, Biare slightly raised the corner of her mouth, pretending to be nonchalant.

“You’ve arrived, Lady.”

Soon, the vice guild master appeared and greeted Biare with a smile, sending the clerk back to his place.

Biare, who answered by shrugging her shoulders, headed to the reception room he guided her to.

The expectation that she might soon meet the Absence of God and get closer to the truth was creeping up.

“Where is the Absence of God?”

“He sent a message saying he would be a little late due to urgent business that needed to be handled.”

“It seems that person has no concept of time.”

“He’s not usually like that, please forgive him generously, Lady.”

Biare chose to wait for him while sitting on the sofa. After all, it was she who was disappointed, not him.

As she was staring at Fabian fussing about, footsteps began to be heard from the corridor.

“It seems he has arrived.”

At his words, Biare turned her head and stared intently at the reception room door.

Soon the door opened, and a man wearing a white mask and robe entered.