In response to my question, Hadel’s face frowned.
“How far do you mean?”
“I’m asking how serious you are.”
Whether it’s just curiosity about women, a desire to date me, or even considering making me a real wife.
That part was really important to me. Because,
‘My response will depend on Hadel’s state of mind!’
I listened attentively to Hadel’s answer. Hadel, sensing my seriousness, sighed briefly and suddenly began unbuttoning his shirt.
“How should I show you? With my body?”
“Stop! Seriously, are you crazy!”
Answering with your body! With no place to go, my face turned completely red. I slapped Hadel’s arm while scolding.
Hadel responded as if surprised.
“You were the one who started it.”
“I didn’t ask you to show with your body! Please at least listen to what I say and act accordingly. How did you manage to hide that insane behavior all this time?”
“It only works on you.”
Hadel’s hand held my wrist, massaging the part between his thumb and forefinger. It was a firm, strong hand of a solidly built man.
Facing me, Hadel spoke in a deep voice.
“Because it’s desperate. I’m afraid you’ll leave me.”
“…Why would I leave?”
“If I can’t capture your heart, you might leave, right?”
Surprised that Hadel had such thoughts, I couldn’t say anything. While I hesitated, Hadel’s face contorted with pain.
“But I don’t have anything to hold onto you. You’re a woman who says living as a jokjevi is more comfortable.”
“W-Well…”
My words came back like a boomerang. Because it didn’t mean that I wouldn’t mind if Hadel wasn’t there, I added as I tried to justify,
“I-I meant that it’s better to stay by your side as a jokjevi. How can being a jokjevi be better than being human? Being human is better.”
Making a pitiful expression that gives a strong sense of guilt to humans! Saying this, Hadel changed his expression abruptly and took one more step towards me.
“Then it’s not a problem.”
Look at this guy? I pushed his chest with my free hand.
“No, right? I really don’t know what’s not a problem. You haven’t answered the most important question.”
Of course, with a chest as solid as a rock, it didn’t budge even when pushed. He said with a strangely relaxed expression.
“We talked about everything, and everything has been resolved. What’s the problem?”
Nothing has been resolved! Frustrated, I shouted while pounding my chest.
“I’m just an ordinary jokjevi! How can I have a future with you… a future… Ugh.”
“Marian.”
As emotions surged while speaking, tears flowed uncontrollably. I couldn’t see because of the tears. I screamed in frustration, pounding my chest.
“Uisshi! Can you believe I’m saying this with my own mouth? I’m also originally a princess? Saying such things hurts my pride!”
Hadel comforted me as if consoling a child, pulling me into an embrace and patting my back.
“Yeah, you’re the Jokjevi princess.”
“Don’t say that! It’s annoying!”
I thumped my chest with strength, but Hadel didn’t react at all. Hadel’s lips touched the tip of my nose. Startled, I closed my eyes and opened them again. Tears fell, and for a moment, Hadel’s face became clear.
Hadel was smiling.
“Marian, you’re overthinking it. Think more simply.”
“Simply?”
“Yeah. Do you like me?”
I bit my lip. Even if I came up with all sorts of reasons to deny the truth and conclude that it’s impossible, my answer was already determined.
Tears welled up again. With a twisted face and a crying voice, I answered softly.
“…I do.”
Hadel asked again.
“Do you want to live with me?”
“I want to live with you.”
Hadel’s large hand gently touched my eyes. This time, the question was a bit more mischievous and straightforward.
“Do you want to kiss me?”
“…You’re such a fool, really.”
Instead of answering, I kissed Hadel’s lips.
Perhaps due to my tears, there was a slight bitterness from the wet lips. As I licked the soft lips, they opened wide.
“Marian, you…”
As if blocking his words with his lips, I pushed my breath into his mouth. The warm heat pushed back against me, heating up my whole body.
Although I was the one who boldly initiated the kiss, at some point, I found myself weakly embraced by Hadel’s arms.
Hadel, with a reddened face, lightly complained while covering his face with the back of his hand.
“Oh, seriously. Stop teasing me.”
After asking himself.
The tears subsided, and for some reason, I burst into laughter. I had no idea why I had agonized, avoided Hadel, and shed tears.
Hadel spun me around. Then, he pushed my back.
“Anyway, let’s get some clothes. We’ll have more time to be human in the future.”
He said he wanted to kiss, and now he says this. Instead of resisting being pushed, I embraced Hadel’s neck once again.
The reason Hadel was surprised yesterday was that my clothes were wet from crying in the wind.
After adjusting my clothes to match the kiss, Hadel pleaded again.
“[Since the tailor is coming tomorrow, let’s get clothes as soon as possible. Let’s dress warmly. Got it?]”
Yeah, I hate it.
The Male lead Always Seduces Her with His Beauty (Matriarchy)
Xin Jiao Zhou is the leader of the world’s premier sect. She has just experienced betrayal from all sides, was poisoned in an assassination attempt, and faced death squad attacks while the poison was taking effect. After finally clearing out the scum from her sect, she was drugged again while trying to detoxify.
After waking up from a night of unconsciousness, she gained a “beautiful and kind-hearted” husband.
Xin Jiao Zhou: “???”
He fell ill.
She came to see him, bringing breakfast.
As she put down the breakfast and was about to leave, his hand slipped while holding the spoon. “Clank!”
She turned around upon hearing the noise.
He looked up at her, his eyebrows drooping: “My hand… has no strength.”
“Shall I… feed you?” she asked tentatively.
He opened his mouth cheerfully: “Ah—”
Thinking she was drowning, he jumped in without hesitation to save her, but nearly drowned himself. In the end, it was she who swam over to rescue him, giving him air underwater.
After emerging from the water, his ear tips turned red. He lightly brushed his cheek, tucking his sideburns behind his ear, revealing delicate, pink-tinged ear tips. He lowered his gaze, too embarrassed to look at her.
Xin Jiao Zhou: He’s truly beautiful, kind-hearted, and adorable.
A certain someone when disciplining subordinates behind the scenes: “If they don’t obey, just kill them.”
What’s that? She might already have someone she cares about in her heart? A certain someone: Find out who it is, kill them, and then there won’t be anyone.
What? She met a man by the riverside? What? That man even hurt her? A certain someone: Whichever hand hurt her, chop off his entire arm.
Love at first sight without realizing it, gradually falling in love, slowly getting closer…
Family and national grudges, schemes and desires, good and evil, crime and punishment, she and he face the future together, seeking justice with passion!
A naturally dark female lead who could accidentally destroy the world but is actually an honest person VS a weak, pitiful, and helpless but skilled fighter, beautiful white-cut black male lead
My heart is not of stone, how steadfast is your love? — Tao Yuanming “Imitating the Ancients (No. 3)”
— Reading Guide —
Cold female lead & dramatic black lotus with hidden yandere traits male lead