Lady Devil - Chapter 69

#69

I was not angry at his attitude of pressing me. The emotion I felt then was closer to a feeling of sadness that made my whole body numb. The questions he threw at me rapidly, without giving me a chance to refute, were all wounds without exception.

I tried to twist my wrist to escape from him. However, Johannes did not let me go, and my tears that I could no longer hold back fell in drops.

“Johannes, you… shouldn’t do this to me.”

Eventually, I murmured without realizing it. Johannes let out a rough groan and bowed his head deeply. I couldn’t say anything for quite a long time after that.

Johannes might not have known, but in fact, I had never blamed him for being unqualified. It was just that my head wasn’t working properly due to the mixture of all emotions, and my lips were frozen stiff. However, it was a response that could easily be misunderstood.

I didn’t explain to him until the end. That you were the only person I had worried about all this time. That it wasn’t time I had endured just for my own sake. I didn’t know until then. That my stupid lips were no different from a knife that habitually hurt Johannes.

That night that only blackened the insides of the two people.

The silence was long. Fortunate or unfortunate, the long silence became a flagpole in the storm. It was a gray flagpole declaring that you are not in a position to surrender to sorrow now.

Yes, the time I had endured and borne was not short. It was as if someone was asking me. Will you let all your patience come to nothing? Was this all your determination that trampled on one loved one? It was only after hearing that question that I regained a bit of reason. I felt the weight of the half-torn heart that I had cut off and embraced with a heavy chest.

So Johannes, I must send you away after all.

Even though I don’t know what kind of letter it was, isn’t it something that someone came all this long way after seeing just a piece of paper? So you should send this man away as you had initially resolved. Although I was so heartbroken that I couldn’t easily push him away.

I opened and closed my lips several times, and only then, barely tying up my heart that seemed about to collapse, I managed to say to him.

“Johannes, you… shouldn’t have come here.”

Johannes’s gaze, which had been down all along, rose towards me.

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