He hadn’t been sane for the past few days without Eun Soo, and the thought of living without her in the future was impossible.
— If you really care about Eun Soo, it’s the right thing to do.
His hand was trembling like someone addicted to something.
Hyuk Joo hung up the call and randomly tossed his cell phone.
A selfdeprecating laugh continuously flowed from between his lips.
Where had it gone wrong?
He retraced the origin. There was no need for long deliberation.
It was from the very first meeting.
‘I have a woman I like. I’m still looking for her.’
He told her that he had a woman in mind, that she shouldn’t expect something like love.
He drew a line with Eun Soo from the beginning.
He was the one who had told her to live as his wife but not to expect his heart.
Eun Soo had lived faithfully according to those words. Now, she wanted to lay down the duty of being his wife that had been pressing down on her shoulders.
It was all his fault.
“Eun Soo……”
His heart ached as if it was constricting.
From the first step, he pushed Eun Soo away. And then he asked her why she was trying to distance herself from him.
It was no different than throwing a tantrum at Eun Soo, who had tidied up everything thinking she had finished her job and left.
I cherished you in my heart while you were by my side, why didn’t you do the same?
“Damn bastard.”
He cursed at himself.
How must Eun Soo have felt when he said he wanted to help Seo Yeon Ji?
He hadn’t thought about it then.
He wanted to ask Eun Soo for permission. He was afraid she might misunderstand, so he firmly said he didn’t intend to divorce.
If I were in her shoes at that time, how would I have felt?
“……”
Rain started to pour again from the overcast sky.
The thin raindrops gradually thickened over time.
Thud, thud, looking at the rain falling on the car window with a sound, Hyuk Joo lowered his head.
How much time had passed like that?
The outside had grown so dark that one couldn’t see an inch ahead.
The rain continued to fall.
Hyuk Joo, lifting his head, stared at the house where Eun Soo lived.
The light was on.
He wanted to rush over and knock on the door.
He wanted to kneel in front of Eun Soo who would come out when the door opened and beg her, saying it was all his fault.
He felt like his words were rising to his throat, wanting to say that he was trapped in his arrogant thoughts, that he didn’t understand her feelings, that he didn’t even know what love was, yet dared to talk about love in front of her.
However, if he did that, it would also be an act of not considering Eun Soo.
“……”
Feeling anxious that she might let go of him forever like this, Hyuk Joo scrutinized and calculated each of his actions.
He measured the repercussions that every word he was going to say, every action, would bring if he were to become on Eun Soo’s side.
Only then, he thought, could he hold on to Eun Soo again.
Hyuk Joo found the cell phone he had randomly thrown away earlier and held it in his hand.
He stared at the screen displaying Eun Soo’s number for a long while before pressing the call button.
Yes.
Eun Soo’s voice was calm, as if she knew it was his call.
“……Eun Soo.”
I was waiting for your call.
“……”
I thought it would be better to do it over the phone rather than face to face, so I told you to let Hyuk Joo know my changed number.
Eun Soo’s voice was clear without a hint of a disguise.
“……Let’s talk in person.”
There’s nothing to talk about in person. I just wanted to tell you to live well, that’s why I said let’s meet once.
“You haven’t heard my side of the story.”
Is there more to hear? They’re just meaningless words to me now.
At Eun Soo’s words, Hyuk Joo clenched his fist.
Her words, claiming everything was meaningless, hollowed him out. It sounded as if he had become a person who meant nothing to Eun Soo.
Hyuk Joo held back a sigh ready to burst out between his lips and said,
“Let’s meet tomorrow. At 2 PM, at the place you mentioned.”
Hyuk Joo.
“I’ll wait.”
Don’t wait.
“……”
Take care of yourself.
As Eun Soo bid him farewell like this, Hyuk Joo shook his head.
He couldn’t end it like this.
“I’ll wait.”
Hyuk Joo?
“……I want to wait.”
Stop it. It’s right to end it here.
“I’ll wait.”
I won’t show up even if you wait. So, don’t do something meaningless.
Eun Soo hung up the phone. Shortly after, all the lights in her house went out.
Hyuk Joo clenched his face with dry hands.
He was heavily weighed down by darkness where he couldn’t see an inch ahead.
The rain that started yesterday afternoon had continued until today.
The term ‘rainy season’ wasn’t attached for nothing.
Watching the soaked grass, Eun Soo repeatedly clenched and released her hand.
Her body was tired from moving around since the morning, looking for a house to live in.
Watching the rain falling outside the window, Eun Soo lay down curled up on the sofa.
Her eyelids grew heavy.
Soon, she fell into a nap.
If it weren’t for the call from Saet Byeol in the middle, Eun Soo would have slept until the night, as she fell into a deep sleep.
Were you asleep?
“……Ah, yes. I’m a bit tired.”
I shouldn’t have called. I was passing near your house and thought I would buy you some citron jam. You said you like the citron jam from the cafe there.
Eun Soo felt a warmth in her heart at Saet Byeol’s words.
She appreciated her thoughtful consideration.
Huh?
“Why is that?”
What? They’re saying they can’t sell today. This is unbelievable.
Listening to Saet Byeol grumble, Eun Soo laughed and replied,
“It must have sold out.”
No. It looked like a single man had reserved the entire cafe. When I went inside, he was the only customer there. Eun Soo, if you have any reason to come here next time, just come with me.
“……Okay.”
Our professor realized I ran away again and is calling me. Eun Soo, see you next time.
Before Eun Soo could respond, Saet Byeol hung up the phone.
Eun Soo rose from the sofa and walked to the kitchen. She filled the electric kettle with water and unpacked a rooibos tea bag.
One man.
Saet Byeol’s words suddenly resurfaced in her mind.
‘I’ll wait.’
The voice of Hyuk Joo, who kept repeating that he would wait, echoed in her ears.
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Male lead is a Divorced Husband
She said to him: “Tell me, what makes you like me? I’ll change it!”
Liu Changning transmigrated into a female cannon fodder character in a female-dominant novel.
After reading the first half of the novel’s plot, the first thing she did upon transmigration was to divorce the Pan Jinlian-style male protagonist she had just married.
She indulged herself, pretending to be ugly and poor.
But as time passed, the way that man looked at her became more and more unusual…
Liu Changning was dumbfounded: Tell me, what makes you like me? I’ll change!
――
This lifetime, Pei Yuanshao was rejected by the same woman twice!
The first time, she drove him away. Forced by the situation, he endured the waves of anger in his heart, yielding and humbling himself.
That person lay slanted on a rocking chair, her sallow face emotionless: “If you don’t want a divorce, go cook!”
Pei Yuanshao’s face was dark and gloomy: “You!”
The second time, after the crisis in Jinling City was resolved, the new emperor sent someone to pick him up. He turned around, stammering: “I… I have to go. If you keep me…”
That person lay on the kang bed, her back to him, as if she had long anticipated this day, crisp and clear: “Goodbye!”
Pei Yuanshao was so angry his fingers trembled: “You… you!”
The mission of family and country made him restrain himself, averting his eyes and turning to leave this broken household.
Two years later, they met again. Seeing her ethereal face, his body shook like a sieve.
“She was originally a ‘she’!”
At the Qionglin Banquet, the top scholar of the imperial examination, a talented person with exceptional speech and conduct, all the unmarried young gentlemen from aristocratic families looked at her with shy and timid eyes.
The peerless imperial official Pei Yuanshao felt the anger in his heart erupt. He pointed at the woman surrounded by the crowd at the Qionglin Banquet, his thin lips slightly curled: “Little sister, I wants that person to be the wife-master of my Mingde Prince Manor.”
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