“In Ho…….”
At the sudden confession, Su Yeon’s eyes violently fluttered.
She had sensed something was off, but this was truly odd.
The way he had rushed out to embrace her as soon as she entered the house, the sudden deep kiss, and now this confession of missing her.
It was clear that something had happened to In Ho while she was away.
“In Ho, really, what’s wrong? What happened? Huh?”
Su Yeon, her face full of worry, gently stroked In Ho’s cheek.
“Just…….”
“…….”
“Just being alone at home, I had a lot of thoughts.”
In Ho, trying to smile, overlapped his hand over Su Yeon’s, which was touching his cheek.
“The more I thought about it, the more I realized how terrible I’ve been to you all this time.”
In Ho’s eyes grew complex with emotion as he muttered.
“I’m sorry, Su Yeon.”
“In Ho…….”
“I should have said this earlier, but I kept postponing it, thinking it wasn’t familiar to me. I’m sorry for everything, even for saying it only now.”
Amidst his jumbled thoughts, In Ho precisely voiced his apologies.
There were so many things to apologize for, and he felt he couldn’t even distinguish between what should and shouldn’t be said.
But he wanted to say he was sorry.
It was the least he could do right now.
“I’m sorry, Su Yeon. Really, I’m so sorry. I promised to do my best so you wouldn’t regret this marriage, but it seems like I haven’t kept that promise for even a moment in these three years.”
“…….”
“I thought not asking was respecting you. I thought it was right to wait until you were ready to talk. But during my silence…….”
“…….”
“I really didn’t know you were suffering this much.”
His voice, filled with sincerity, quivered with guilt.
Su Yeon bit her lower lip, unable to respond to these unexpected words.
He said it wasn’t so, but it seemed clear that something had happened, yet she couldn’t ask.
She felt odd. Her eyes stung, and her nose felt sore.
Her heart pounded wildly, spreading a deep warmth throughout her body.
It was a feeling she had never experienced before.
That left Su Yeon unable to say a word.
“I didn’t know that, and thought if I just made a little effort, we could get close again. I’m sorry for that too. For thinking too easily without any right to.”
“…….”
“I’ve been thinking a lot, but no matter how much I think, I don’t know what to do. How to make up to you for the past three years.”
“…….”
“It feels so shameless to even think about it. I’ve been such an irredeemable mess of a husband these past three years, and now to try and make things right with you. Whether my efforts will only make you suffer more…….”
In Ho’s voice trailed off in despair.
Watching him quietly, Su Yeon’s heart felt heavy yet overwhelmingly full.
She was swamped with emotions too intense to handle.
Because of that, Su Yeon was still confused about what response to give, but she felt she couldn’t just stay silent like this.
Even if it meant rambling, she felt she had to say something.
“No, no, In Ho.”
“…….”
“Why would you say you’re an irredeemable mess of a husband? Do you know how happy I’ve been because of you, In Ho?”
Su Yeon gazed at In Ho, blinking slowly.
Memories of the times spent with In Ho swiftly flashed through her mind.
It was tough. So tough that she almost gave up everything, even her life.
But that didn’t mean it was In Ho’s fault.
She was the one who never said it was hard.
Su Yeon looked at In Ho with trembling eyes.
She took deep breaths to calm her irregularly beating heart.
It seemed like the moment she thought would never come had suddenly approached.
It felt like the truths she had always buried deep inside were ready to come out.
It would probably be a long story. She needed to collect her thoughts.
About why she couldn’t think of letting go of him despite a year so difficult she wanted to give up her life.
“I’ve been truly happy since I married you, In Ho. So grateful and thankful to you for marrying someone like me.”
“…….”
“I seriously wondered if someone like me deserved to be this happy with you. I was really happy. That’s the truth.”
Su Yeon started with a voice heavy with emotion.
She recalled her past self, bewildered by the happiness she felt.
Even as tears came to her eyes, a smile leaked through.
“I was too happy to give up. I wanted to protect it. You, and the happy times we had. I wanted to continue being happy with you, In Ho.”
The reason she couldn’t let go of In Ho despite all the hardships was because those tearfully happy moments were too precious to her.
She had always been someone who didn’t cling, who easily gave up, throughout her life.
So not longing for something was as easy as closing her eyes.
But In Ho was different.
She couldn’t, and didn’t want to give up on him.
The warmth and thrill she felt when he first held her hand, and the warmth of being in a family.
She didn’t want to let go because it was In Ho who taught her all that.
When scheming men desperately battle for her favor in the male harem
This one’s also on my reread list! The rivalry, scheming between the men in the imperial harem are just as intense and thrilling as in classic palace drama novels, where concubines fight to the death. Give it a read, girls! I promise you won’t be disappointed.
Synopsis:
“I am not worthy of her… but I still want to be by her side, even if only as a loyal dog…”
Those were the painful whispers of Yue Guanyi – the proud Crown Prince of the Great Qi, who was torn between deep love and a guilty conscience. Despite holding the supreme power of the Imperial Guard, he still could not forget the dark past when he was sold into a brothel.
Fate played a cruel twist when Qiu Shuzhi – a young female official who had just passed the imperial examinations with top honors – stepped into his life. She did not know that she was the one who had saved him from a tragic fate many years ago. And now, her heart was the target of pursuit for both Yue Guanyi and the powerful Empress Dowager Qin Qing.
While Yue Guanyi only dared to silently care for and protect the one he loved from afar, the Empress Dowager Qin Qing openly expressed his feelings and did not hesitate to take advantage of his power to approach Qiu Shuzhi. The covert struggle between the two most powerful forces in the imperial court began…
Trigger warning: All men in this novel are yandere style.
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