Whether sitting or lying down, while eating or just before falling asleep, I couldn’t stop thinking about Kaidel Gongja. I wanted to see him as soon as possible.
If I were to put it simply, I would say that I fell for him hook, line, and sinker.
However, what actually filled my mind was not passion for him but rather skepticism. If it could be called passion, it was the desire to meet him quickly and confirm the truth.
But at times like this, I reminded myself to be careful. It was a conclusion I had reached after calmly assessing the current situation.
Kaidel Gongja has helped me in various ways so far.
Most of it remained a secret, but incidents like the Time Medal event and the one where he rescued me from the hunting ground had already spread rumors within the palace.
Even Ronde Kyung criticized his actions.
If I were to visit him in such a situation, it would only make matters worse.
‘Rocarde and Lorisah are in a complicated situation, in a complicated situation…’
That song, sung by the cursed voices of the kids in the village below Tumbarsan, repeated endlessly in my mind.
No, that was an excessively naive prediction.
I shook my head vigorously.
The rumors spreading in the palace right now were probably about Kaidel Gongja losing his mind. Maybe he studied too much, and in the end, his head…
That Rocarde Kaidel is in some kind of relationship with the illegitimate Lorisah? What kind of nonsense is that?
If I had to choose, I would definitely suspect Kaidel Gongja’s mental health.
“Ugh… No. Gossip is not that simple.”
I immediately reached a conclusion in a catastrophic direction.
Is Kaidel Gongja usually popular?
People, especially women, might be more likely to develop a story that the imperial lion cub has gone mad because he was seduced by an ambitious illegitimate girl.
How stimulating and delicious.
I looked up at the sky outside the window with moist and misty eyes and whispered his name.
“Kaidel Gongja…”
‘Whether I die or you die… We seem to share the same fate under one sky.’
That thought made me even more melancholic.
He saved my life several times, and even the small favors were overwhelming to remember.
He didn’t ask me for money or create fake scandals, comparing it to a matter of life and death.
If he were to give me the title of the greatest seductress, I would bow down and say, ‘Thank you for last time.’ That’s what a person does.
“…”
‘Did that person treat me well all this time for this?’
When such thoughts came to mind, I felt like I was going crazy.
I really wanted to see him. Whether it’s the 2nd Prince’s palace or the academy, I wanted to go and knock on the door, shouting, “Come out!” But I couldn’t do that. Right now, I must stay still and not draw anyone’s attention.
I sighed loudly, feeling like I was going to collapse, and scolded myself out loud.
“Hold on, Lorisah. Endure it. In moments like this, you need to lower your body. You have to lie down until any rumors fade away. You can do it. Right, Lorisah?”
Darn it. Why are tears welling up?
“Miss, are you feeling unwell?”
“Yeah… strangely, I don’t feel any energy. It’s kind of chilly, and then it gets better, and then sluggish again…”
“Let me check somewhere.”
Eria compared temperatures by placing her palm on both my forehead and hers with a worried expression. Then she shrugged.
“There’s no fever… I’ll tell the kitchen to bring something delicious.”
“Yeah… thanks… that cake was delicious at that time.”
“The strawberry cake? I’ll bring it generously.”
“Bring plenty. Let’s share…”
As I burrowed into the blanket, she glanced at me.
“Why?”
“Close the window!”
“Yes?”
“Lock the window, Eria. Also, draw the curtains!”
“In broad daylight?”
“Please. Oh, it’s too bright.”
“Really?”
“Yes. Really.”
I had to go to such lengths, fearing that Kaidel Gongja might enter my room.
Eria, with a serious face, closed the curtains and left. In the pitch-black room, I pulled the blanket up to my nose, sniffling.
Ghosts might appear in broad daylight. What on earth is this nonsense?
I planned not to leave the room until my thoughts were organized.
Having a good excuse like a fall accident made it difficult to utilize it as much as I thought. It was more oppressive and depressing in the dim room than before.
‘Should I quit being a maid and leave? I don’t necessarily have to become a tutor for a noble family. If I lower my standards to that of a wealthy house…’
‘Is this reckless behavior without knowing what he’s thinking? But the bad one here is Kaidel Gongja.’
‘How sincere is Kaidel Gongja…?’
I couldn’t even shed tears, but I sniffled and fell asleep, only to wake up startled when light suddenly shone in.
“Our Lorisah seems to be a sleepyhead. Taking a nap with the curtains closed in broad daylight.”
“Ah!”
“…”
“Ah!”
“Uh, well…”
“Ugh.”
I checked Kaidel Gongja’s face and screamed again.
When male lead is the homewrecker
“I know she doesn’t love him.”
I’ve read the novel below twice already. Girls, I’m highly recommending it to you!
The female lead? Not a good person.
The second male lead? Not a good person.
The male lead? Willingly plays the third party, breaking up the female and second male lead’s relationship despite all the warnings from his friends—so yeah, he’s definitely not a good person either.
Basically, nobody in this novel is simple-minded or without scheming.
The female lead starts off as the male lead’s secretary, but don’t worry—later on, she takes over the company while the male lead steps back to support her. He won’t steal her spotlight, overshadow her, or dull her shine.
I love novels where men are out here snatching wigs, tearing each other down, and going to war just to win the female lead’s affection. And this is exactly that kind of novel. Most of Hai Dai Ran’s works have this dynamic. You’ll see the male characters’ emotions being pushed to the absolute extreme.
There’s even a scene where the second male lead exposes the male lead online for being a homewrecker. The brotherhood immediately gangs up on him, dragging him through the mud. I find it compelling —it completely flips reality on its head, where usually, women are the ones fighting over a man and getting torn apart by the sisterhood.
For me, female leads in the novels I read should only struggle in their careers, not in love. But if the brainless romantics in the story are all men? I have zero complaints.
I’ve pretty much read all of Hai Dai Ran’s novels and even translated all of them—her works are just my thing. I’ll slowly upload everything here. One day, when my website is official, I hope I can invite her to join as one of the star authors.
Here’s the story synopsis:
One-line summary: She is his lifelong obsession, to the point where he was willing to be a third wheel, scorned by society, just to wedge his way into her relationship with her fiancé.
Cold-hearted and indifferent female lead + Scheming and subservient CEO male lead
Intro 1:
“I know she doesn’t love him.”
With blood trickling from his clenched fist, Rong Xiu gazed at the woman before him, his eyes clouded with anguish. Hidden in the wardrobe, he had witnessed Fan Xia – the woman he desperately loved – in an intimate embrace with her fiancé. Yet his heart still yearned for her, defying all reason.
Fan Xia, the elegant and composed assistant, carried something mysterious in her eyes whenever she looked at her fiancé, Wen Lan Sheng. Strange occurrences began to surface – secret meetings with the young Gu Jin Yi, an unexplained withdrawal of 5,000 yuan… Then suddenly, her fiancé’s sister, Wen Jing, violently attacked her.
In this matriarchal society, Rong Xiu had risen to become the chairman of a powerful healthcare conglomerate, breaking through gender prejudices. But for the first time, he willingly stepped into the shadows as the other man, disregarding his friends’ warnings to become her secret lover.
Because he had discovered the truth – Fan Xia wasn’t the pure angel everyone believed her to be. And perhaps, he was the only one capable of helping her execute her mysterious plan…
Intro 2:
Rong Xiu’s biggest regret in life was missing out on Fan Xia.
He secretly loved Fan Xia for 7 years.
Watched her go public with her boyfriend.
Watched her kiss her boyfriend at their wedding.
Until that man blissfully nestled in Fan Xia’s arms, obtaining everything he could only dream of.
The crazy jealousy stripped away his hidden secret love, layer by layer, burning like wildfire.
Fan Xia, how can I have you!
【Reading and Trigger Warning Guide】
1. Female dominant, male submissive, male pregnancy
2. Male lead schemes his way to the top, male competition
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