Regret With All Your Might (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 75

Conrad hurriedly turned the next page.

— My table manners weren’t elegant enough. Father said he’d lost his appetite. I must never do that again. Keep thinking, Olivia. Don’t make mistakes—just keep doing your best.

The next page, and the one after that—same thing. Every entry was filled with self-reproach over the family’s criticisms.

Conrad’s name appeared many times. Events he couldn’t even remember were described in vivid detail. And after each, the same words followed.

— Never do that again, Olivia. Don’t make mistakes—think for yourself.

Conrad’s hands trembled violently. There were five identical notebooks like this. Did that mean every single page was filled with entries like these?

“What on earth…”

Unconsciously, Conrad dropped the diary from his hands. It fluttered open to the first page as it hit the desk. The handwriting was terribly crooked, smudged in places—but Conrad couldn’t bring himself to call it ugly.

— Maybe just coming here in the first place was…

Because the next sentence imprinted itself in his mind as naturally as breath.

— Just memorize it by writing it down. That’s what Conrad said. Write it down and memorize it. You can do it, Olivia.

Conrad bit his lip without realizing it. He searched his memory. He’d never once spoken so gently to Olivia.

When they were young, he’d always yelled and cursed at her; as they grew older, he’d simply ignored her.

A faint afterimage of a tiny girl appeared before his eyes—and at the same moment, a furious voice echoed sharply in his ears.

“It’s your fault! If you can’t understand, then write it down and memorize it! It’s because of you! Stay out of sight and live crushed beneath everyone else!”

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