People Aren't Meant to Be Fixed! (4 Chapters Left to Complete) - Chapter 179

“No, no. Carlisle wouldn’t possibly…”

Ever since that strange space with the Primordial Gate—when Ronowe and I went there and came back—something must have gone haywire inside me without my noticing. In this reality, where someone deliberately distorted memories, everyone believes I merely fell down the stairs and hit my head. My brain functions properly 90% of the time, but perhaps the remaining 10%—the neural pathways responsible for certain sensations—have gone completely haywire.

That must be why the memory suddenly resurfaced along with the excitement I felt when I first rode Tommy.

If none of that made sense, maybe it was because I’d just been suppressing anger over Lilith moments ago, causing my blood pressure to spike.

But even so, why did a pointless memory of Carlisle making me uncomfortable surface the instant I ran into him?

Was it simply because that moment left such a vivid impression?

Honestly, after living for hundreds of years, I’ve forgotten countless memories—only a handful remain crystal clear.

Yet the incident with Carlisle happened comparatively recently. It’s unreasonable to compare it to memories from my past life.

Of course, Carlisle has grown up far too well—handsome, admired by many noble ladies in the imperial capital—and even though I do feel an inexplicable weight whenever I catch myself staring at him, it’s generally bearable…

“This is all Carlisle’s fault for saying something so strange back then.”

There’s no way I could be in the wrong. It’s entirely because Carlisle, who’s watched over me since I was very young, failed to be considerate enough.

At any rate, one silver lining is this: while people tend to blurt out nonsense randomly as they age, I managed to throw a pillow at Carlisle before he went completely mad that time, snapping him back to his senses—so it likely won’t happen again.

“Wait—why am I rambling to myself like this?”

Even if my conscience has returned, this isn’t like me at all. I mustn’t get nervous or flustered.

“So, let’s calm down again.”

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