I Pretended To Be Dead And Ran Away - Chapter 18

Reniel realized that Felix wanted to listen to her heartbeat every time he was about to fall asleep, so she obediently held his head and said:

“Why does the master want to listen to my heartbeat?”

Felix did not answer.

He just listened to the heartbeat coming from Reniel’s wrist, gradually finding calm.

Felix found this state peculiar.

He had always been unable to sleep, remaining in a drowsy state, and then when the medication took effect, he would suddenly have no memory from some point on.

That’s why feeling sleepy like this was strange to him.

When the drug’s effects kicked in, his memories would just disappear as if the lights went out, but he had never felt drowsy or like he could fall asleep before.

As he leaned his body languidly, he could feel Reniel gently stroking his hair.

Even though he thought he should twist and break her neck for such an impertinent action.

He truly started to feel sleepy and couldn’t refuse.

Reniel’s heartbeat was very loud, like that of a pony proving it was alive.

It was beating rapidly, but like its slender master, the sound of the beats was small yet strong.

It was a contradictory expression, but it was a sound that was both noisy, as if a small creature’s heart was running and then stopping, and pleasant to hear in itself.

He was recalling that he had drunk four bottles of whiskey.

A bit of dizziness came over him, and he felt himself becoming more comfortable each time Reniel’s thin, long fingers brushed his forehead.

The fingers brushing his forehead were very slender. He thought those hands were thin like a woman’s, yet pleasing to look at.

The work of a servant must be hard, but the hands were very pretty. After only seeing his own large hands all his life, it felt strange to see Reniel’s small, long hands.

Her skin was also quite fair, as if she didn’t go outside the mansion. As if she didn’t get any sunlight.

The sky-blue hair seemed to suit the white skin quite well.

“…I need to hear a heartbeat to realize I’m alive.”

Perhaps that’s why Felix said so in a languid voice and closed his eyes.

Soon, Reniel’s wrist pressed closer to his ear, and although her hair tickled, she remained still.

She was nervous about having to lie down together, but she was relieved that he wasn’t trying to take off her ring arbitrarily today.

“Hand.”

“Yes?”

“Don’t stop.”

Reniel realized he meant the stroking and quickly resumed caressing his hair.

The jet-black hair melting into the darkness was as deep as the universe holding stars.

She recalled that his hair was this black even when seen in sunlight.

Reniel kept trying to think of other things to avoid showing her fear.

For instance, to forget that his eyes were blood-red, and that there were rumors he was a monster who drank the blood of nobles, she forcibly thought that his eyes were like jewels, and the color was more like a beautiful carpet than blood.

She was desperately trying to think that way.

Suddenly, his face, eyes closed defensively, came into her view.

“This is just making me sleepy. Are you sure you really put me to sleep?”

When he slowly opened his eyes, she sighed as if there was nothing she could do.

Then she removed her hand from above him and embraced him.

He was about to stop her action, but then he detected the heartbeat from her chest and the pulse from her carotid artery.

He remained still, as it seemed to make him even more languid as it flowed into his ears.

“Is this how I fell asleep?”

“Yes.”

Reniel was cursing her body that trembled involuntarily due to instinctive fear, even though she didn’t want to, while pretending not to be afraid.

However, Felix could already hear the sound of her tense heartbeat.

Felix speculated whether she was so tense because she was indeed a spy.

Even as he thought that if she really intended to take his life, now would be the opportunity while he was falling asleep, he was gradually sinking into sleep.

Of course, he didn’t think Reniel would kill him even if he fell asleep and became defenseless.

She was very weak, couldn’t lift heavy things well, and was a person who always put on a fake smile to hide her eyes stained with tension whenever she saw him.

Such a coward couldn’t possibly be a threat to him.

Even if she was an assassin, she was more likely just meant to gather information rather than attempt to take his life.

Felix found it strange that he was having such useless thoughts.

“I can’t hear it well.”

At his spiteful words, Reniel sighed and moved away. Then she undid the top of her vest and shirt.

She deliberately didn’t undo it all, leaving the bottom buttoned to reveal just her chest.

“…What are you doing?”

“You said you couldn’t hear well.”

Felix wondered if perhaps the rumors of him avoiding women had spread outside, and now instead of trying to seduce him as a woman, she was trying to seduce him as a man.

Of course, he felt nothing from seeing a man’s chest.

Rather, looking at Reniel’s innocent eyes, plump lips, and pure expression that seemed to know nothing, imagining what it would be like if the person before him were a woman was more effective.

He indifferently placed his head on her chest.

“Why don’t you exercise a bit?”

“I do exercise. Physical strength is essential for servant work, right? After I finish, I run during my personal time. Walking, running.”

“Huh.”

Felix laughed at Reniel’s predictably regimented daily routine.

“Uselessly diligent.”

“Well, my goal is to become the head servant.”

“Why?”

“If I become the head servant…”

I’ll get paid a lot.

Reniel quickly swallowed those words and racked her brain to give the right answer.

“I can be close to the master.”

“Aren’t you already by my side even though you’re not the head servant yet?”

“I’m already getting paid that much though.”

Even though Felix thought Reniel’s words were nonsense, he found himself laughing again without realizing it.

“And I really like you, master.”

“…”

“I never thought I’d have such a perfect job.”

“Perfect, you say?”

“Of course. The salary is high, the food is delicious, you never touch my personal time. The sleeping hours are always set so I can get 8 hours every time, right? And if I work overtime, the overtime pay is five times the basic daily wage.”

As Reniel said this, she realized anew how much of a dream job this was.

“Oh, and there are special bonuses on special days, and bonuses on holidays like Thanksgiving.”

Perhaps that’s why it felt a bit regretful that she had to give up this job and leave this place earlier than she had planned.

“Is that what makes it perfect?”

“I don’t know about other things, but I’ve been satisfied working as a servant. For someone from the poorhouse like me to work in a noble family is like a dream come true, isn’t it?”

“…”

“If I become the head servant… it would be even more legendary, right? Like the hope of the poorhouse.”

“You have a strange way of asking for a promotion.”

“Hehe.”

Reniel laughed like that and hugged Felix’s head tightly.

Felix found it amusing.

Despite trembling in fear, with the terror evident in her voice and eyes.

It was funny how she pretended not to be afraid, and yet all her words seemed sincere, with her heartbeat pounding at the same rapid pace.

“What a strange thing I’ve heard.”

He declared that and said no more.

The rhythmic and pleasant sound of her heartbeat in his ear was making him increasingly drowsy.

Soon, Felix’s breathing became regular.

She gently stroked his hair, little by little, carefully.

Soon he relaxed his body, not moving.

As Reniel observed Felix closely, her eyes fell on his perfect pectorals and abs visible through the gap in his black robe.

Perhaps because her own clothes were open too, her male body when wearing the ring was starkly contrasted with Felix’s body.

Seeing his sculpted abs and pecs swell even more with each breath he took made her feel strange.

Even though she was currently in a man’s body wearing the ring.

Seeing Felix’s enormous body made her feel her womanhood with her entire being.

Moreover, his body temperature was very high, even his exhaled breath was hot.

When she gently shifted her body, he immediately embraced her very tightly.

Reniel hugged his head again and patted him.

He burrowed further into her chest, listening to her heartbeat.

Since this part wasn’t mentioned in the original work, Reniel didn’t know exactly why he wanted to listen to heartbeats.

Yet, seeing the numerous scars visible on his body, she wondered if he couldn’t sleep because he couldn’t feel reassured about being alive.

“Don’t go far away.”

Whether it was sleep talking or a warning, Reniel didn’t answer his words and hugged him back just as he was hugging her.

And when she fell asleep without realizing it and woke up.

“…?!”

Ianathas was watching the two of them with the most surprised expression in the world, his eyes wide open.

And he was inexplicably close, right next to the bed.

An Indifferent Woman is the One Men Desire the Most

One-line summary: The female lead is actually cold-hearted and extremely rational. She has stage-by-stage relationships and won’t two-time, but there will always be someone who secretly likes her.

This novel has the following triggers, so if you’re sensitive to these, please don’t read:

1. The female lead has had many relationships, but she treated each one seriously and broke up properly.

It’s just that the men unilaterally pestered her incessantly. For the female lead, when she doesn’t like someone anymore, she simply doesn’t like them.

(This applies to her relationships with Male Lead 1, 2, 3, and 4 as well, but she’s loyal in each 1-on-1 relationship!)

2. In this novel, Male Lead 2 and the female lead kiss in a car, and Male Lead 1 sees it and beats up Male Lead 2.

The female lead calls the police and sends both Male Lead 1 and 2 to the police station! Male Lead 1 begs the female lead not to break up with him.

3. Male Lead 1 has a gentle appearance but an obsessive personality.

Male Lead 2 has a delicate and soft appearance, slightly green tea-like (two-faced).

Male Lead 3 is a youthful college student and a smart person who has secretly liked the female lead for a long time.

Male Lead 4 is the female lead’s father’s special assistant, a business elite with deep, hidden thoughts.

4. At the beginning of this novel, the female lead has already broken up with Male Lead 1 (Chapter 4) and gotten back together with Male Lead 2 (ex-boyfriend).

5. Enter with caution if you have triggers!!!