I Held the Leash of a Blind Beast (1 Chapters Left to Complete) - Chapter 32
“If I don’t suck on a candy or something, I might just do something without even realizing it.”
Looking at Elicia’s lips, swollen into a delicate hue like rose petals, Illeon felt his mouth go dry. His throat felt so tight he wanted to undo the cravat he’d tied while dressing in formal attire.
“What?”
“I don’t know.”
If Elicia knew what he wanted to do, she might not even be able to stand before him. Illeon would bet the ducal mansion and all its attached lands that she’d flee the moment she understood his true feelings.
‘I thought I’d already seen rock bottom.’
Illeon had plummeted in one go from a life others admired to the most wretched place imaginable. While lying helplessly at that lowest point, thrashing about in disgrace, he’d witnessed firsthand “the absolute bottom of the man named Illeon.”
Those were days sunk deep in mud, like being trapped in a quagmire.
Having abandoned his humanity and surrendered to despair, Illeon mocked himself as worse than a beast. And since that life showed no end in sight, his soul had begun fading, wilting from within.
He’d believed there could be nothing lower.
Thus, holding Rona’s hand and slowly piecing his daily life back together, he’d managed to pull himself up day by day—telling himself it was better than that, better than yesterday.
But was love truly this contradictory?
He longed both to gently graze Elicia’s lips and to bite them until they swelled painfully.
He hadn’t even properly seen her smile, yet he wanted to see her cry from heartache caused by him.
One moment he wished to hold her close and become the safest place where she could rest; the next, he wanted to crush her in a rough embrace, binding her to him until her waist nearly broke.
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The female lead is a fierce and powerful demon king. The male lead is a once-in-a-millennium celestial lord, admired by the entire cultivation world.
They are equally matched, legendary rivals who have battled for centuries.
In the final duel, the female lead is gravely injured. The male lead saves her, seals her memories, and hides her true identity. He tells her that he is her fiancé. His entire life has been flawless—except for the one thing he never expected, never controlled, and never wanted to control: falling for his greatest enemy. She is his inner demon, his obsession.
When the female lead regains her memories, she is furious at his deception.
She makes his life a living hell.
And somehow, the male lead—possibly a total masochist—doesn’t mind at all. In fact, he’s happy she’s paying attention to him.
Yep, we’re back to my favorite trope: male lead suffering. If you love this kind of story, jump into the pit with me now!!!
Intro
Dong Xia lost her memory.
Her handsome and extremely powerful fiancé Li Qing comforted her: “It’s okay if you can’t remember. I’ll always be with you.”
Everyone thought Dong Xia’s ancestors must have burned incense to get such a perfect fiancé. He was the number one person in the immortal realm, yet he remained chaste and only loved her.
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The day before marrying her fiancé, Dong Xia finally remembered everything.
She wasn’t suffering from memory loss at all.
Her arch-enemy had made her fake her death, destroyed her cultivation, replaced her memories, and pretended to be her deeply in love fiancé.
No wonder he said, “It’s okay if you can’t remember”!
Dong Xia laughed coldly as she pulled out her long knife: Li Qing, prepare to die 🙂
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Li Qing, as the supreme being of the immortal realm, was the people’s shining beacon.
The only unknown stain in his life was his affection for Dong Xia, the ruler of the demon realm.
In the final battle of the war between immortals and demons, the sky collapsed and the earth shattered. The ruler of the demon realm was finally slain under the sword of the supreme being of the immortal realm, and everyone in the immortal realm applauded.
The cultivation world lost a ruler of the demon realm.
And in the back mountain of Li Qing’s cave dwelling, he secretly hid away a fiancée.
Notes:
1. The female lead is white on the outside, black on the inside, and the queen of flattery; the male lead repeatedly tests the edge of darkness, a VIP guest at the crematorium.
2. Fantasy cultivation world setting.
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Now she should know just how Illeon must have felt 🤧