At her words, a sigh of relief burst out. Is it over? Is it through?

But she shook her head.

“I want to, but… I don’t have the right.”

“Eyna…”

“If I hadn’t accepted that proposal from the beginning, Shasha… that small and fragile child wouldn’t have had such trauma.”

“No. If it wasn’t you, it would have happened through someone else. The Marquis couple, who made a dog die in front of the child… You can’t think they only thought of you.”

Her hands trembled.

“I… don’t have the right.”

“No. It has to be you. If it’s not you… there’s no one to persuade the child. The child will believe it only if you say it. My words are just comforting words for myself.”

Adult Shasha had a tough time. But she eventually overcame it.

It might take longer now that she’s younger. But the current Shasha has people who love her. People who love Shasha, and people whom Shasha loves.

“Eyna, I don’t know anything about you. I only know that in your childhood, you were used by the Marquis couple, pretended to take poison, and pretended to be sick. That’s why you left Shasha.”

“…”

“I think even what you did was forced. You probably didn’t think it would cause Shasha so much pain, and then you regretted it. So you kept hearing news about the Marquis, right? That’s how you recognized me as soon as you saw me.”

Her eyes shook at my words.

“You recognized me before I mentioned my name. You kept watching, listening, spying from afar. You knew about Shasha’s things just now because you were curious and could hear them. You like Shasha more than anyone else. You still worry…”

She bit her lips tightly.

“You were my first mistress. It was strange that a noble young lady grew up without a single maid or a single doll, but it was still good… Shanensia was so beautiful. Even looking at her was lovely.”

“Now Shasha is beautiful too.”

“How pretty she must be. How beautifully she must have grown up.”

She really likes Shasha. Eyna’s face, which had been sad all along, brightened little by little.

“My day was happy. It was tough with only me, but it was okay. I saw everyone in the Marquis dislike and avoid the lady, but it was okay. As if we were the only two in the world.”

“Is that so?”

“Yes. I felt sorry for it. Working as your maid for a year… It was a heartbreaking, happy, enjoyable feeling. But… I ended it with my own hands.”

Her hands trembled again. It seemed uneasy to recall those days.

“Eyna.”

“I needed money.”

“I see.”
“I had one sister… she was sick. In fact, she wasn’t healthy since entering the Marquis’s residence. Still, to make a living, I hid my sister’s illness and entered the Marquis’s residence.”

Eyna continued to heave deep sighs, as if recalling those days.

“The cure that made everyone in my family die didn’t exist. There were two ways to survive. Continuously receive blessings at the temple or buy magic tools sold at the black market. Among the magic tools sold secretly, there was one that claimed to take away all bad illnesses. It seemed like that could save my sister.”

I felt a sudden annoyance. Magic tools sold at the black market. It seemed like those were the kinds of magic tools secretly sold by Pig X Tesla. Moreover, their effectiveness was unproven.

“It might be an excuse, but… even if I could go back, I think I would make the same choice. My only family… I wanted to save my sister.”

“I understand.”

“But what I did is unforgivable. Giving false hope all year long… I, who became the person you trusted the most, did such a thing.”

I placed my hand on her cheek. Her face, thin and with rough skin. It showed how much she must have suffered all this time.

“What happened to your sister?”

“The magic tool was useless… Instead of taking away the bad illness… she had no strength. She was deceived. She had hope… but she’s still alive. Maybe because she’s young, she’s enduring longer than our parents. But we don’t know when she’ll leave.”

“Oh…”

The Pig X Tesla, causing trouble inside and out. But now was not the time to be angry about him.

“I did useless things. Only caused pain… So I wanted to apologize someday. Even if Miss Shannoncia hates me, even if she despises me, I still wanted to apologize.”

“Now is the time.”

“But I…”

Either she still felt guilty or something, she shook her head mournfully.

“You heard it. I… betrayed the trust you gave me.”

“Yes, I heard it all. So this time, I’m going to try threatening you.”

“What…!”

“I’ll make you blessed. I know a knowledgeable priest. Through him, I’ll treat your sister’s illness.”

“Oh…”

“If you can live by being blessed, then listen to my request. I’ll save your sister, so tell my brother about the past. And for the rest of your life, bear the guilt as Shasha’s, my lovely sister’s maid.”

“What…?”

“Do you dislike it?”

“Why… why are you doing this to me? I… I’ve only done bad things.”

Eyna’s large pupils, swollen from weight loss, were filled with tears, streaming down her already large eyes.