‘Where do I start, and how?’

Ricardo and I hardly had any connection. I had seen him only a handful of times before he left the Pennel family.

Our only interactions were brief encounters on the hill in the garden. Even then, we never really conversed properly.

‘First, I need to meet that boy.’

The thought of Ricardo, sharp as a well-honed sword, brought a sense of overwhelming dread.

Anyway, I need to get closer to him to protect him from Justin…

Feeling anxious and claustrophobic, I stretched my neck from side to side and shook it off lightly.

What do I have to fear now, having survived both starvation and freezing?

On the desk was a mirror with a diagonal crack. It was so small that my whole face couldn’t fit in it, but I leaned in close and grabbed a handful of hair that covered my eyes. Without hesitation, I cut it off with scissors, and my Pennel family trademark blue eyes shone brightly.

My reflection had completely changed from the child in my memories. What was different? Then it struck me.

Fear.

The very terror that gnawed at me and eventually led to my death had vanished completely.

That was the only change, but suddenly everything around me seemed much clearer.

“Right, don’t be afraid. I can do this.”

I spoke to no one in particular and looked out the window. The rain was still pouring heavily, and nothing could be seen outside.

Thinking about it, it wasn’t just the absence of fear that had changed.

“Give it to me!”

“……What?”

Looking at the brown-haired girl who was shaking her head and demanding the book in my hand, it seemed almost laughable.

Is this a natural consequence of having died and come back to life?

“That book. How do you have a book?”

“This is…….”
The day after I woke up from death, the weather was clear, in stark contrast to the previous day’s torrential rain. As soon as I woke up, I looked for the tall man who often visited me. Only after meeting him did I learn that he was a retainer of the Pennel family and the head butler of this house.

When I expressed my desire to read a book, his eyes widened. He seemed unsure of what to do with me for a moment, but then he personally took me to the family’s library.

“I borrowed it myself. You can go and find something to read if you need it.”

Only then did his bright green eyes, having realized something was amiss, turn towards me.

“You… you can talk?”

“At least better than you.”

“What, what do you mean?”

Sabrina Rowe Pennel was my age, which was problematic. It was odd to have someone the same age as me, and we weren’t twins. Even Justin, the current Countess’s biological son, was not her child. There was another younger brother named Jonathan, but I hardly remembered his face.

In this world, it was not uncommon for a man to bring home a child from outside. I had even heard that there were several other illegitimate children besides me.

The problem lay in the fact that Mrs. Pennel loved her husband. In this reality, a woman who loved her husband was inevitably doomed to unhappiness.

Mrs. Pennel, who could hate me as living proof of her husband’s infidelity, couldn’t drive me away. Begging for love from a husband was not considered virtuous in noble society. So, she destroyed herself.

A mother suffering from depression, an always absent father.

Somehow, the child in front of me seemed somewhat pitiable.

“You couldn’t possibly be better than me at anything!”

For a moment, I looked at Sabrina, who was throwing a tantrum, with a pitying gaze.

“Why are you looking at me with those eyes?”

She was quick to notice.

When yandere male lead believes she loves him — but she never did

“How dare you!”

“How dare you make me love you, only to cast me aside as nothing more than a friend?!?

“I will never accept that.”

“I will never let you return to him.”

“Even if I have to burn myself to ashes.”

“Even if I must shatter my purity, my dignity, my very soul.”

“I will never let you escape me!”

This was the first novel that introduced me to the matriarchal genre. I’ve read it three times already!

At first, the male lead despised the female lead. Later, he misunderstood that she liked him, so he condescendingly and reluctantly reciprocated her feelings.

Then, he suddenly discovered that she was kind to everyone in the same way, and there was already someone she cherished in her heart, and that person was not him.

The male lead couldn’t believe it, he became angry and crazy. He was determined to capture her body and heart by any means necessary.

Synopsis:

Want to see how a green tea bitch male lead falls in love with the female lead?

Want to see how he flirtatiously pursues the female lead?

Want to see how he gets slapped in the face repeatedly?

The male lead is a green tea bitch, a poisonous lotus, jealous, ruthless, unscrupulous, with a venomous heart, and he’s also a delusional maniac.

The female lead is righteous, positive energy-filled, kind, a holy mother.

Let’s see how two people with extreme personalities come together~

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