All My Firsts Are You (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 37

I realized that the words I thought were just teasing him were actually him quietly revealing a corner of his wounded heart. A realization that came one beat too late can sometimes be long enough to leave someone with an even deeper scar.

[Lee Ha Ru.]

When no words came from the other side of the phone, Jun called my name in a low voice. Even a single syllable “mm” couldn’t escape my throat. I was afraid that in that brief reply, the overwhelming emotions I hadn’t even digested myself would spill out.

[I know you’re listening, so I’ll just say it.]

“……”

[It wasn’t to make you sulk. And it definitely wasn’t to make you remember how much I hurt. I just wanted to tell you that even this short phone call with you right now feels so precious to me, so happy. That’s what I wanted to say.]

Because we had those days, the time I spend with you now feels even more precious, even happier—that’s what he wanted to say…

[Since you’re quiet again, I’ll force out a little more of what I didn’t really want to say. If I had known today would come, all those days would have been bearable. More than bearable.]

“……”

[I can’t lie and say it didn’t hurt at all. But I do think I endured it well. Because we’ll greet many more days that feel like yesterday, and tomorrows that feel like today. Days that make me think, this is too good to be true, days that make my heart race.]

It felt like you were slowly walking into my heart just as a fierce rain began to pour. Then you brushed away the downpour with your hands and hung a rainbow in the sky. My heart, which had been torn for a moment, still ached with aftershocks, but even so, it started to clear little by little upon meeting that rainbow.

“……Mm.”

[Wow, Lee Ha Ru. You made me say all this, and you’re just gonna answer with “mm”?]

“No, it’s not that I’m brushing it off or anything.”

[Then what is it? What kind of feeling?]

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