All My Firsts Are You (Completed Main Story) - Chapter 17

Looking at Lee Ha Ru lower her head, I felt as if my chest was being crushed. I couldn’t help but wonder—why does it always have to be like this? I felt like the guilty one. Even though you were the one who left me, every word I spoke seemed to wound you. Suddenly, overwhelmed by emotion, I felt my eyes grow hot.

Ha, Kim Jun. You turn into a weepy mess whenever you see Lee Ha Ru. Please, pull yourself together. Just… please…

My gaze, fixed on you as you hesitated and failed to answer my question, finally dropped downward along with your head, which sank weakly.

I wanted to know. Were you truly the one who first came up with this program? Was it really you who first voiced that longing—to find your first love? Had you come here of your own will, or had you merely been dragged along reluctantly to find me?

Even if the answer to all these questions was “no,” had you at least held some tiny hope of seeing me again?

Suddenly, I remembered our last conversation in Japan—your reaction to my almost forceful suggestion that we turn the month we’d spent together into a screenplay.

“Alright. I’ll do it.”

“…I said I would.”

“You said that because you knew I was hoping for that answer.”

“I didn’t expect you’d agree so easily, though.”

“Well then, that’s even better. That means I gave you an answer beyond your expectations.”

“…Yeah. I guess you did. You’re right.”

Hearing you agree to collaborate on the script left me with a feeling eerily close to defeat.

Lee Ha Ru had given such a clear, straightforward answer that you’d do what I wanted—yet it felt like proof that your so-called sincerity during those memories had all been a lie.

On top of that, you believed the only reason I’d invited you to my home was to pressure you into accepting my screenplay proposal. You acted as if there were no other reason—as if I were a complete stranger.

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