“The director mentioned a slightly lacy white polo shirt with a collar and short navy blue shorts. So, I prepared three sets with similar designs but different colors, all in matching tones for you. How does it look?”
Something felt off. On the day I first visited this seaside village, when I showed her the designs of the clothes I was wearing on the day I first awkwardly met Jun, I inexplicably felt uneasy while looking at her.
I pondered on the origin of this uneasiness. You meticulously examined the clothes Hyunyoung presented without a gesture or word, and you seemed calm. Why am I the only one, my heart alone, swaying like this?
And soon, I felt like I knew the answer.
From the lace on the collar to the color of the clothes and the length of the shorts. If I hadn’t cherished the memories of that day when we first met, the scenes from that day would have become blurry and faded in the recesses of my memories.
How long had Jun been wandering through this scene to vividly remember it?
So, the uneasiness I feel is likely akin to the emotions Jun involuntarily confronted within this scene for the past nine years.
“Why is that?”
As if sensing an unsettling gaze without a word or gesture, Jun asked, shaping his lips. I quickly turned my head. I didn’t forget to recall the smile that was blocked by the uneasiness.
Jun seemed to examine the emotions I had hidden for a moment, as if he were aware of them. Soon, he swept his eyes across my face, as if to dig into my eyes for a moment, then rolled his eyes to the right and looked at me as if pressing me down.
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“You couldn’t have forgotten.”
Having read my uneasiness in that brief moment, Jun responded briefly to the words I couldn’t utter. Along with that, he added such a beautiful smile that I became speechless.
Jun, seeming conscious of Hyunyoung again, turned his head and spoke to her.
“It seems the artist also likes it. Then, since Hyunyoung prepared a total of three sets… Oh, during the shoot, let’s have Minseo wear this outfit. And since there’s a spare, can I take this one separately?”
“It’s not a sponsorship, so if you want, you can do that, but do you have a place to use it?”
“It won’t suit me if I wear it, right?”
“Are you joking?”
“Yes, I’m joking.”
Jun, with a nonchalant look, let out a shameless laugh. The director will handle it skillfully. Hyunyoung handed the clothes to Jun without further questioning.
After she disappeared toward the yard where the carrier with the clothes was, I quietly whispered to Jun to express the hidden emotions.
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“I understand. About these clothes.”
Jun’s gaze met mine as I slightly raised my head.
“Of course, I understand. It’s the clothes you were wearing.”
“Yeah. But it’s not necessarily obvious that you know.”
“No, this is also perfectly obvious. This was the outfit you were wearing on the day I fell for you.”
“I thought it wouldn’t be a big surprise since you’ve been remembering for so long. However, the emotions conveyed by Jun’s words were more profound than I had expected.
“You’ve been remembering continuously. Until now. Without forgetting.”
“…Remembering wasn’t difficult. I always wandered through those memories whenever I had a chance. On the contrary, what was difficult was forgetting. It was much more challenging to let it be forgotten.”
The words that forgetting was more difficult than remembering. A chilly feeling hinted at the vast emotions not fully encapsulated in that sentence.
“Oh, the first shoot is coming up. Shall we go?”
“Huh? Not shooting here? This is where we first met. This living room.”
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“Well, since you sprawled out here as soon as you came… you wouldn’t have even seen me coming in.”
“…So, you’re saying the first shoot isn’t here?”
“Would you have preferred it here? Just do it as you remember, then?”
He wasn’t thinking about that, nor could he, but it was a teasing remark to make me curious. It was Jun’s habit to make me curious, eventually revealing a sly smile and shaking my heart if I showed any signs of getting upset.
“Ah… Well, Haru, can you stay here for a moment? I need to discuss something with the assistant director. Once that’s done, let’s leave together right away.”
I nodded in response to his words, and Jun, showing me his back, disappeared.
It hadn’t been long since we arrived at the filming location. Yet, I felt my heart trembling a bit, as if I would soon grasp a piece of the memories of that day.
Whether it’s a small piece or a big piece, I waited for Jun, hoping they would fit into the beautiful puzzle of our larger memories.
It’s taking longer than I thought.
Jun’s conversation with the assistant director seemed unexpectedly long. I stood still in the center of the living room, not even a pillar of the house, waiting for Jun.
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I spent time carrying props and decorating with the art team here and there. In the meantime, I briefly met Jeongeun and Hyunsoo. I had to hurriedly send them away without having a long conversation due to Kang PD’s call.
“Is this the artist who came?”
An Indifferent Woman is the One Men Desire the Most
One-line summary: The female lead is actually cold-hearted and extremely rational. She has stage-by-stage relationships and won’t two-time, but there will always be someone who secretly likes her.
This novel has the following triggers, so if you’re sensitive to these, please don’t read:
1. The female lead has had many relationships, but she treated each one seriously and broke up properly.
It’s just that the men unilaterally pestered her incessantly. For the female lead, when she doesn’t like someone anymore, she simply doesn’t like them.
(This applies to her relationships with Male Lead 1, 2, 3, and 4 as well, but she’s loyal in each 1-on-1 relationship!)
2. In this novel, Male Lead 2 and the female lead kiss in a car, and Male Lead 1 sees it and beats up Male Lead 2.
The female lead calls the police and sends both Male Lead 1 and 2 to the police station! Male Lead 1 begs the female lead not to break up with him.
3. Male Lead 1 has a gentle appearance but an obsessive personality.
Male Lead 2 has a delicate and soft appearance, slightly green tea-like (two-faced).
Male Lead 3 is a youthful college student and a smart person who has secretly liked the female lead for a long time.
Male Lead 4 is the female lead’s father’s special assistant, a business elite with deep, hidden thoughts.
4. At the beginning of this novel, the female lead has already broken up with Male Lead 1 (Chapter 4) and gotten back together with Male Lead 2 (ex-boyfriend).
5. Enter with caution if you have triggers!!!