“Iharu. You’re not saying anything again.”
“I have no idea what you’re thinking right now, and I don’t feel innocent at all.”
“Okay, if that’s the case, I was trying to arrange accommodation.”
Just by looking at it, Jun seemed to be busy trying to cover up the words he had just brought up. Not only that, he was attributing my silence to me not being innocent enough. I couldn’t figure out who sent the suspicious message first.
Maybe it’s better not to add such words. I didn’t even want to waste accommodation elsewhere for a short stay, so my answer had already been decided. However, in the midst of saying that, mischief welled up in me.
“Oh, then. I guess I need to ask for accommodation.”
“I was planning to stay at that house if it’s okay with you. It seems uncomfortable after all.”
The message window, which had stopped coming up, made me laugh, showing Jun’s busy state as he thought about it.
“What’s uncomfortable?”
“I kindly asked earlier. If you come, will you stay at our house?”
With a request for accommodation, Jun suddenly asked if I would stay at our house first, reminding me of the man who had talked about innocence. Where did that man who boasted about his innocence go?
I pretended not to know and asked casually.
“I was trying to arrange accommodation.”
“If you don’t mind sleeping with me, I said I would arrange it.”
“There’s no way I’d mind. Are you kidding me?”
Perhaps by now, he had noticed something different. It was when laughter filled my mouth.
“That’s right. If you come here, it’s natural for you to sleep with me. Oh, I didn’t know.”
I imagined your expression, which was probably both happy and bewildered, looking good by now.
“Speak straight, Kim Jun. Not sleeping with you, but staying at your house.”
“……. ”
The timing of the ellipsis bothered me.
“That’s what I mean.”
The messages that came up after being completely ignored were even more suspicious.
“I didn’t ask for it, anyway.”
What did I expect? It was amusing to see him contemplating, resigning, and denying something all by himself.
But then, at that moment, a remark that made my laughter fade away crossed my mind.
…Perhaps the words hidden inside Jun’s heart.
“I really don’t need anything else. Just… I just want to see you, Iharu.”
“It’s more amusing to see you trying to express these feelings right now.”
Jun skillfully conveyed the unspeakable yearning.
“I’ll be waiting, Haru.”
“Sorry and thank you for always making me think about my situation. I’m not playing around; this is my true sincerity.”
I lost my words for a moment. It was fortunate that Jun wasn’t in front of me right now. At least I could respond without revealing the tightness in my chest.
“Yeah. I’ll go.”
I added an uncool response to Jun’s sophisticated words. Then, I quietly thought about the reason why my chest felt tight now.
Perhaps Jun was practicing swallowing words that built up to his throat every time. Despite knowing the fact that my schedule was relatively flexible. Just because I miss you, I silently swallowed my emotions, considering my request for you to come here just once as an unreasonable desire.
I just wanted to run to you because I wanted to see you. Love always leads to very often making blind choices. Jun considered my choice, made faithfully based on my emotions, as a subject of excessive gratitude.
Your words expressing apology and gratitude for making my situation known to me. My desire to reach you felt even simpler and more trivial.
I encapsulated all these emotions in just one line.
“Really, I’ll be there soon.”
This time, I’ll go to you.
Before meeting you and after meeting you, we took turns playing two roles. Sometimes, we became the one waiting, and sometimes, the one going to meet. Then I suddenly thought.
The one waiting and the one going to meet. The words ‘waiting’ and ‘going to meet.’
So, I had simply thought that there was a sad and distant long distance between them. Therefore, both the one waiting and the one going to meet stood at either end of that distance, endlessly wandering. Someday, the moment would come when they gave up narrowing that distance. I might have vaguely felt this nine years ago.
Considering it foolish to hold onto the end alone, I scolded myself.
Saying I was foolish for just missing Jun and not moving forward.
But now I know.
The one waiting and the one going to meet. The words ‘waiting’ and ‘going to meet.’
The reason why the long parting felt sad and the long distance felt distant was because there was something in between. It was there, quite simple, and that’s why it didn’t change.
Because there is sincerity between Jun and me. Sincere love. The earnest desire to look at his face affectionately, to embrace in a warm hug, and the eager heart to convey warmth to each other’s lips are the reasons why the long distance between us feels resentful.
So now, I don’t want to just stand and wander at the end of that long parting. I want to try becoming the one who goes to meet first.
An Indifferent Woman is the One Men Desire the Most
One-line summary: The female lead is actually cold-hearted and extremely rational. She has stage-by-stage relationships and won’t two-time, but there will always be someone who secretly likes her.
This novel has the following triggers, so if you’re sensitive to these, please don’t read:
1. The female lead has had many relationships, but she treated each one seriously and broke up properly.
It’s just that the men unilaterally pestered her incessantly. For the female lead, when she doesn’t like someone anymore, she simply doesn’t like them.
(This applies to her relationships with Male Lead 1, 2, 3, and 4 as well, but she’s loyal in each 1-on-1 relationship!)
2. In this novel, Male Lead 2 and the female lead kiss in a car, and Male Lead 1 sees it and beats up Male Lead 2.
The female lead calls the police and sends both Male Lead 1 and 2 to the police station! Male Lead 1 begs the female lead not to break up with him.
3. Male Lead 1 has a gentle appearance but an obsessive personality.
Male Lead 2 has a delicate and soft appearance, slightly green tea-like (two-faced).
Male Lead 3 is a youthful college student and a smart person who has secretly liked the female lead for a long time.
Male Lead 4 is the female lead’s father’s special assistant, a business elite with deep, hidden thoughts.
4. At the beginning of this novel, the female lead has already broken up with Male Lead 1 (Chapter 4) and gotten back together with Male Lead 2 (ex-boyfriend).
5. Enter with caution if you have triggers!!!
