Soon, the questions that were all messed up seemed to straighten themselves out neatly at the words uttered by Secretary Yoon.
It would have been better if there were no clues. If that day, the conversation I had with Jun after finishing the audition for male actors, spending a night having a deep conversation at our home, hadn’t happened. The sadness of you leaving for Japan hadn’t settled in yet at that time.
Facing Secretary Yoon, I suddenly recalled the conversation we had sitting side by side on our sofa that night.
Jun turned his body in the direction of where I was, leaning his side on the sofa. Looking at Jun like that, I couldn’t help but feel a bit gloomy, recalling what you said a while ago.
“It’s already heartbreaking, Iharu.”
“Huh?”
“You’re imagining the two weeks without me by your side, aren’t you?”
“…How on earth can you guess that just by looking at my face?”
“What’s so surprising about that? Iharu, look at your expression.”
“I’m surprised, naturally…”
“Because I love you, would it be too cliché to say that?”
“Very much so.”
“Well, then, for now, it seems I’ll have to become a bit cliché.”
“What? Can you figure everything out just because you love me?”
“It might be a little different.”
The trace of a faint lingering smile on your lips slightly curved upwards.
“Because I want to know everything since I love you. So, every time you say something, don’t say something, or try to hide something, I end up scrutinizing you like that, and that’s how it goes.”
“Why… What is it that you want to know so badly?”
“Your emotions changing in those moments. I want to know even the smallest details.”
“…”
“So, ultimately, what you said is right. Because I love you, I can know everything.”
“…Maybe I shouldn’t show my face now.”
I buried my head in Jun’s chest. For whatever reason, Jun changed his words like that but inadvertently put a little strength into the arms that suddenly held me. In response to the question of whether it was changing the statement “I don’t want to hold you” to “I don’t want to hold you” with a question, even a pleased smile emerged.
“Because every time I, figure things out about you…”
“Because I keep, figuring out your sincerity.”
So, it wasn’t a tone of smugness or satisfaction.
Unfortunately, the sincerity at the bottom that I was holding right now was related to me, so I had to endure the sadness of being separated again soon. So, because the reason was you, Kim Jun, you put the already apologetic feeling into that one sentence.
“So don’t look at my face now…”
“Listen as if you’re asking to look more closely.”
“…Then, you misunderstood.”
“If you hide your face, it seems like I won’t recognize you.”
It felt a bit unfair. I lifted my face that had been buried in Jun’s chest. How deeply I was held, Jun gave a bit of strength to the arms that held me as he smiled at the already sweaty bangs that he neatly brushed to the side.
“Iharu, you look like a smart elementary school student.”
“…You, played with my bangs.”
“No, I was trying to give it to you, but it ended up being a joke.”
“Ugh…”
“…Should I not go?”
Jun seemed to say that he had been waiting for the moment when I looked him in the eye. The words that had already passed while laughing in the car, the emotions I showed again during that time, the gaze that seemed to betray those emotions.
Probably, the conclusion you reached, which was that you would never look at all of this carelessly and pass by, was so simple. It was so simple that it went deeper.
No matter how much significance the many other reasons you had to go held, it simply proved how this simple proposition was shattered. If you don’t go, it’s over, as you just said.
“Why is it so easy for you to say? To say that you won’t go, how can you say it so easily?”
“Why shouldn’t it be easy?”
“……What?”
“Because you’re here, so even if I put everything else aside, why should it be difficult to say that I want to be by your side?”
The question was sudden. You were questioning the foundation of what was naturally supposed to be said. So, the answer to the question you threw had to be simple. Just like there’s no need for elaborate reasons for my feelings of liking you.
“Since a while ago, you’ve been having a sullen face. How can you say not going so easily?”
“…….,”
“Seeing that you can’t even answer, my guess was naturally correct again.”
As Jun’s words ended, knowing my true feelings, it could have been a bit triumphant, but Jun’s words ended somewhat desolately. Since you already knew my true feelings, were you secretly hoping for that? Did you want me to send you off a little relieved? Was I becoming a burden to you again? I, who couldn’t bear even two weeks of separation…
“When I asked, ‘Should I not go,’ it also meant I didn’t want to go. It’s really unbearable to part for just one night, but having to be apart for two weeks. Haa, sometimes I wonder why I’m doing this.”
“……It’s your dream. Now you have the chance to do what you’ve been dreaming of.”
“I know.”
“But still, should I not go…”
“My nine years.”
“……What?”
For a moment, even I unknowingly had a somewhat tearful expression. No matter how nonsensical your words were, because of the words mentioning your nine years, I couldn’t deny or get upset about anything.
“Maybe the dream I’ve been cherishing more desperately is on this side.”
“……What are you talking about?”
“The chance to love only you like crazy.”
“…….,”
“Me as your lover, rather than me as a movie director. It’s such a precious opportunity that I’ve gained.”
“……Yeah.”
“So, what I said earlier, ‘Should I not go,’ is not a rash or unreasonable thing to say.”
“……You keep trying to convince me.”
I said quietly, avoiding Jun’s gaze in embarrassment. Yet, it was within your very audible range. Jun said it wasn’t about convincing.
He said he had just expressed the emotions that had surged within him right now. He also said that even if I told him not to go with my own eyes, he wouldn’t go.
It had already been decided the priority of your life for a long time.
“Jun.”
“Yeah?”
“Take care. I’ll be waiting for you to come back here.”
I said, nailing down my heart not to waver.
“……Persuasion failed.”
Jun said quietly and chuckled.
It was a memory of that night, sad yet infinitely warm.
The image of you that day, the words you said, and now they had become like a dagger piercing mercilessly into my heart.
My Ex-Girlfriend Is The Regent In The Female-dominant World (Male lead transmigrates to the matriarchal world)
Two years ago, Gu Sui picked up a homeless woman in ancient costume from the street.
Apart from occasionally claiming to be a princess from a female-dominant country due to illness, her figure, appearance, intelligence, and martial arts skills were impeccable.
Naturally evolving from roommates to girlfriends, as time went on, Gu Sui found it increasingly difficult to tolerate her queen syndrome.
“Mu Jiulu, can you stop controlling me inside and out? Let’s break up.”
Gu Sui made a breakup call, and since then, he couldn’t find any trace of her.
A year later, Gu Sui, who was planning to move, woke up the next day and found himself in a different place.
“Young Master, today is the day you choose your Wife-master through martial arts competition at Jade Dew Pavilion. Please get up quickly.”
Gu Sui: Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing?
As the only son of a general’s mansion in a female-dominant dynasty, the young empress personally issued a decree allowing Gu Sui to select his Wife-master through martial arts competition. Whoever could defeat him could marry him.
Gu Sui: “……”
He didn’t inherit the original owner’s martial prowess, so anyone could defeat him! And what the hell is a Wife-master?
Forced to come to Jade Dew Pavilion, the densely packed women below made Gu Sui’s agoraphobia act up, and his face was full of resistance.
Until he saw the Regent sitting on the second floor, with a smile on the corner of her lips, her eyes wicked and nonchalant.
Hmm… she looked a little familiar.
It turned out that the Regent also found him a little familiar.
Mu Jiulu fiddled with her bone clasp, her deep gaze locked on the man who was out of place in this world.
“Finally, I found you.”
Male transmigrates into female-dominant world
One-sentence summary: What goes around comes around, taking turns in the crematorium
