Dreams for Louise were mostly memories rather than delusions.
Not fanciful and unrealistic fantasies, but a replay of experiences she had while living.
A repetitive recollection to ensure she wouldn’t forget old things as someone who had to live for eternity.
And the last day of Ideana was also one of the numerous nightmares that visited her.
Perhaps due to the passage of time, her father’s face in the dream was blurry, but Louise was still afraid of that face.
Especially that day, her father’s face was filled with the most anger she had ever seen.
“Baron! The Lester Duchy has sent a declaration of war! Saying they will join forces with the new king and soon arrive at Recherdam…!”
“What?”
“They are charging us with heresy and treason.”
“What does that mean! How did they know…!”
Felix Ideana, the baron, was enraged upon receiving the messenger’s report when he suddenly turned his head.
At the end of his gaze was Louise, standing apart with her mouth shut.
“This is all your fault.”
Louise realized for the first time that her father’s eyes could become so murderous.
That day, after being stabbed in the heart for the first time, the kind father she knew disappeared as if he had never existed in this world.
No… Did a kind father even exist?
“Because you helped that slave escape!”
Felix shouted at his daughter who remained silent in defiance. It was like the roar of a monster.
He had been furious about Louise secretly helping Sched Lupus escape some time ago.
Louise had used her power to silence the knights and secretly helped the Lupus slave escape the Ideana territory.
By the time Felix found out and sent people, the fast ship of the Bitel company had already left the port.
He never thought his daughter could do such a sly thing, so the sense of betrayal was even greater.
“Do you see? They sent an army. They are invading our territory!”
“…It was bound to happen anyway.”
“What…?”
“Since a crime was committed, consequences follow.”
Louise spoke dryly and calmly while looking into her father’s furious eyes.
At that, Felix’s eyes widened.
“Don’t tell me… You deliberately leaked it?”
Did you send evidence along with that slave?
At Felix’s question, Louise quietly shut her mouth.
Seeing his daughter not denying it, Felix grabbed his stiff neck.
And then, smack, a large hand struck Louise’s cheek.
Louise’s body swayed greatly, but she soon regained her balance and stood up straight.
The baron twisted his mouth as he looked down at his daughter standing unfazed after being slapped.
“I guess this much doesn’t even hurt anymore. Right? With a body that regenerates endlessly, getting slapped is probably just ticklish?”
Felix muttered as he watched Louise’s cheek swell up bright red and then subside in the blink of an eye.
In front of him, Louise bit her lip tightly.
No. It hurts, Father.
The unspoken truth was bitter on the tip of her tongue.
Just because it regenerates quickly doesn’t mean she has lost the sense of pain.
So, it hurt every time she was slapped.
Even a small paper cut, a pinched spot with fingernails raised, and her father’s sharp words and unfamiliar gaze all hurt without fail.
But Louise endured it. She had to endure.
“Stop it, Father. This is clearly wrong.”
“…You really are a disobedient child.”
The fist Felix was clenching trembled.
Louise was afraid his fist would fly at her again.
Her heart was pounding so hard it felt like it would burst out of fear. It was hard to breathe well.
However, instead of hitting her, Father turned his steps toward a decorative cabinet on one side.
Louise flinched and instinctively scanned the cabinet to see if there were any knives or weapons in it.
She was afraid Father might go to get a knife to stab her again.
But no weapons were visible in the cabinet.
However, Felix opened a drawer at the bottom of the cabinet.
“Fine. Since you caused this, you will clean it up.”
He took out a green vial from inside the drawer.
The vial with the star of the temple drawn on it was commonly used to hold holy water.
Louise didn’t know what her father was thinking.
He approached Louise holding the vial.
“This is rather fortunate. We can deal with those Lester bastards and the idiot priests at the same time.”
Felix slowly opened the lid of the green vial.
At that moment, Louise instinctively sensed what her father was thinking.
As Louise tried to run away in horror, Felix ordered the knights to hold her down.
“No!”
When Louise screamed and struggled violently, the room shook with the power emanating from her body for a moment and the windows shattered.
Then Felix looked down at his daughter with eyes as cold as ice.
“Ha, you don’t want to kill them, but you can kill your family, vassals, and subjects?”
At Felix’s words, Louise shook her head in denial.
No, I don’t want to. I won’t kill anyone.
While she hesitated, the knights tied her up with ropes soaked in holy water.
When the ropes touched her, the skin burned painfully.
If she unleashed her power, she could break the ropes, but she was afraid to use her power.
The knights forcibly grabbed her cheeks and pried open her jaw.
Felix approached her and poured the liquid from the green vial into her mouth.
“Ugh, cough…! Hack!”
The liquid that flowed into her mouth seeped deep into her body through her throat.
Louise didn’t know what kind of medicine it was.
But as soon as she drank the medicine, she felt a hot energy spreading inside her body.
It was as if her whole body was on fire.
Lava flowed through her veins, and at the moment when her brain seemed to be burning black, her world went dark.
Only isolation and emptiness remained, as if she had been cut off from the world.
A sense that even her body and mind were not her own.
A profound loneliness where something called “I” was detached from the world, existing yet not existing.
And when she came to her senses and opened her eyes again, what she saw was a city tainted black by black magic, and only bright red death.
A land of death where no life could be felt.
Collapsed temples, crumbled walls, people crushed on the ground, and… Father.
“Ah, ah…”
Louise looked down at her own hands, panting.
Her trembling hands were soaked in blood, dyed red.
As she turned her head in confusion, a huge stone tablet was looking down at her beside her.
『 God created humans above paradise.
But the devil cast a black shadow over paradise,
Thus, humans came to know sorrow and anger, fear and hatred. 』
An ancient verse left on the wall of the ruined temple stood tall amidst the ruins, watching over her.
Only then could she truly realize what kind of being she was.
For a moment, she felt the urge to tear her own body apart and destroy it.
She threw herself in front of death, screaming.
But nothing changed.
The legacy her father had passed on to her was terrifyingly great.
She lived.
Endlessly, eternally.
She cried for a long time, looking at the sins that filled her sight.
She never wanted it to be like this.
This end… No, she didn’t want an ending that never ends.
She wanted to turn back time to when she knew nothing.
Or she wanted to pluck out the vivid memories etched in her head and crush them to death like bugs.
However, the undying were powerless.
From all those sins, and also from all those memories.
Louise realized that she would not be able to escape this terrible shackle of life.
So the devil ran away.
From those she loved the most.
From her paradise, overshadowed by a pitch-black shadow.
And so, Louise Ideana disappeared, and in her place……
“…Ma, Mom…!”
A sorrowful voice was heard in her ears.
Ah, that’s right.
Even in the life she wanted to give up, there was now a reason to live.
“Mom, don’t die…!”
A warm sensation spread to her fingertips.
Louise grasped that small sensation with all her might.
It’s okay, Eve. Mom will protect you for the rest of your life…
Louise lifted her eyelids that were as heavy as a thousand pounds.
“Mom!”
Through her hazy vision, she vaguely saw a small, blonde face.
Louise lifted the corners of her stiff mouth with all her might.
Eve, she called her name, but her voice didn’t come out well, so only a faint breath leaked out between her lips.
A warm embrace came crashing into her arms.
Wherever the child’s body temperature touched, sensations came alive and life became vivid.
The nightmare that had been suffocatingly pressing down on her retreated in an instant in front of this small child.
It was as if light was coming in.
“Mom, I thought you were going to die…!”
Between the sobbing voice, the sound of sniffling could be heard.
At the sobbing sound, Louise mustered her strength and spoke.
“Why would Mom die…”
Louise whispered in a breathy voice and laughed weakly.
That’s right. She had to live.
As her vision gradually cleared, she looked at Eve, and Eve climbed up next to her, clinging tightly to her embrace.
“I had a scary dream…! That I…, sob.”
At Eve’s words, the hand that was about to stroke the child flinched.
You too… remember everything.
Scratching the person you love until your skin tears, biting until chunks of flesh fall off, and being soaked in that blood, all of those memories.
Louise hugged Eve, who was nestled in her arms, with both arms.
“It’s okay, Eve. It was all a dream…”
“I’m scared. It’s not a dream. It feels so real… Mom is hurt right now. Because I…”
Eve buried her face, smeared with tears and snot, into Louise’s chest.
There was confusion in the child’s voice.
Memories so vivid that it was hard to distinguish whether it was a dream or not, unfamiliar sensations, and Mom’s aching body connected to that dream.
Louise kissed the top of Eve’s head.
“Look at Mom. She’s fine. It’s just a temporary cold.”
As Louise smiled with all her might, Eve nodded her head while trembling her lips.
Ex-husband Wants Reconciliation
One-line summary: Chasing the wife to the crematorium (making an effort to attract someone who has become indifferent), the female lead doesn’t look back, the second male lead takes the position.
Intro:
To repay the kindness of the older generation, Su Mu crossed into a female-dominated world and became a live-in daughter-in-law of the Yan family, single-handedly saving the Yan family from fire and water.
But her husband, Yan Jiyue, the eldest son of the Yan family, treated her with sarcasm and never showed her a good face.
It wasn’t until after Su Mu’s death that this pampered and arrogant young master shed a few fake tears and pretended to want to die for love.
This life’s kindness was enough. If there was a next life, she would definitely kick Yan Jiyue away.
Who knew that the heavens would be so kind as to allow her to be reborn, returning to the time when she had just married into the Yan family.
Su Mu glanced at the Yan eldest son, who still spoke coldly to her, and threw a divorce letter in front of him.
“Let’s divorce!”
***
Yan Jiyue never imagined that he would be reborn. He happily went to find Su Mu, wanting to make up for the mistakes he had made in his ignorant youth.
Wasn’t the reason the heavens allowed him to be reborn to let him reconcile with Su Mu?
But when he pushed open the door to Su Mu’s room, the person lying on the bed was another man.
Su Mu’s personal attendant, Xie Yi.
Yan Jiyue hated him so much that his teeth itched. In front of Su Mu, Xie Yi was a gentle and considerate whisperer of sweet nothings, but in reality, he was vicious-hearted and deliberately sabotaged their husband and wife relationship.
In the previous life, it was he who secretly hid in Su Mu’s coffin and committed suicide, stealing a step ahead of him to be buried with Su Mu.
Yan Jiyue’s eyes were filled with hatred as he cursed, “What kind of thing are you? Your background is lowly, what right do you have to occupy Su Mu?”
Xie Yi looked at the sleeping Su Mu and no longer pretended to be a whisperer of sweet nothings.
He proudly stuck out his belly, “I have the right because my belly is capable of giving the Wife-master a daughter.”
***
Yan Jiyue was consumed with jealousy. He spread rumors that Xie Yi had once been branded with the mark of a “harlot” on his chest.
But on the night Xie Yi cut off the flesh bearing that mark, Su Mu suddenly realized something was amiss.
“How did you know the exact moment I was poisoned? And why did you show up a month early?”
Xie Yi remained silent, blood from his wound soaking through his robes. His sapphire eyes brimmed with anguish – or was it just a flawless act?
Between a once-arrogant husband now seeking redemption, and a gentle soul willing to die for her – who truly held the darkest secrets? And could it be that Su Mu and Yan Jiyue weren’t the only ones given a second chance at life…?
[Reading Guide]
1. True divorce, chasing the wife to the crematorium, the female lead doesn’t look back, the male lead is Xie Yi.
2. The ex-husband did not cheat, he just realized too late and didn’t realize that he liked the female lead.
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