Sleep did not come. When I closed my eyes, I saw Mother. After that, without fail, black hands from hell would envelop me.

The nightmares were always silent. Even the horrifying screams were swallowed by the darkness, and I always remained silent.

I couldn’t tell if the sticky hands that clung to me and wouldn’t let go were the feelings of guilt I felt or the victims being dragged to hell with me.

But one thing was certain. There was no way to escape from the charred hands.

“I’ll collapse again if this continues.”

Hamster Mu flew over and forcefully pushed my forehead with his foot, laying me down on the bed where I was sitting.

Whether Elihu, who returned to the empire, heard that I had collapsed or not, Hamster Mu came to me that evening.

“If you’re so determined to die, why don’t you just declare that I’m the saint and die publicly? Huh? Just like that!”

Unlike saying harsh words like falling off a cliff if you want to die, when Mu saw me, he stroked my forehead as if feeling sorry for me.

Blood was flowing from my ears and nose, and when I said I collapsed, Mu explained that it was because I pulled up too much power that my body couldn’t handle.

Mu said that while saying so, he would close the forcibly opened door.

As the light spread from Mu’s hand, which was stroking my forehead, my stomach, which had been churning as if I would vomit, calmed down.

“They say it’s the funeral tomorrow. …Don’t you plan to send her off properly?”

Mu patted my stomach with his small hand while lying on the bed. A very subtle vibration was transmitted.

“…I’m sorry that I couldn’t save both Kara and Iana because I tried to save Kara.”

I murmured softly, embracing the cushion next to me. These were stories that I could only confide in Mu, who was now patting my stomach and putting me to sleep.

As I let out the guilt that had been suppressing me, it felt like tears would pour out.

“…If I had realized a little earlier. If I had, I could have saved both of them.”

Smack!

Before I could finish my sentence, Mu suddenly smacked my cheek with his hand. With a crisp sound, the cheek touched by the hamster’s hand tingled.

“Why? Do you think that if you continue like this, I won’t be able to save anyone and everyone will die because of me? You have that power, so you should take responsibility for all lives? Arrogant, kid.”

“…”

“Then you must have played God.”

Hamster Mu grinned with a relaxed smile.

“Moreover, even I, who is considered a god in charge of life, cannot save all these children. Don’t be arrogant just because you have power, kid.”

“But Iana died because of the Perdix experiment that Mother did for me……”

“Kid.”

Mu cut off my words halfway through my waist. When I lowered my gaze, the hand that was patting me stopped, and Hamster Mu, who was staring at me intently, met my eyes.

It was difficult to gauge whether it was a stern expression or compassionate pupils.
“Humbling oneself is good, but lowering self-esteem as if every misfortune began with you doesn’t look good.”

“…”

“What your mother did for you is your mother’s responsibility.”

Mu firmly interjected.

“Starting the human experiment after listening to your mother’s words is Genevra’s responsibility. Strictly speaking, you are also an unintentional victim involved in this incident, kid.”

“Mu.”

“Kid. If someone you don’t know comes to you and says they have to kill me to save the world, would you hesitate to do that?”

I swallowed the tears about to overflow and nodded.

“What Genevra did was exactly that. Your mother, who had no conscience, said one word, and she killed people without feeling any guilt.”

As I sniffled, my resolute voice broke down. Mu raised his hand again and patted my stomach.

“Genevra just needed a reason. You don’t need to feel guilty on behalf of the two who committed such reckless acts just because you have power.”

“Semyula.”

I called Mu’s original name, not his hamster name. Mu, who was patting my stomach, laughed softly.

“Yes, the child with my power.”

The hamster who came close to my face wiped away the tears that had gathered in my eyes. Although his small hand pierced my eyes through the eyelashes, I remained still.

“Let Iana be born again and grow up in a good place.”

“Really?”

“I haven’t said it secretly, have I, kid, that I favor you.”

Mu’s hand touched my forehead again. As he did, the tension suddenly loosened, and my eyelids closed softly.

“Don’t dream at all, kid. Just sleep deeply. Tomorrow will be another challenging day, so get ready.”

I couldn’t resist opening my tired eyes and fell into a deep abyss.

“In terms of fundamental guilt, it’s not with me, kid.”

The hamster gently swept Teriela’s hair as she slept.

“Originally, it’s my power. And the fact that I could stop your mother is also because of me. So, the resentment of the children suffering in this world and the destruction of this world, I take it all upon myself.”

Humming softly, the hamster with a gaze mixed with remorse closed his eyes tightly.

The funeral for Iana took place.